Please do not look at me
as though I have poisoned you
with my love
with eyes full of sorrow
brimming to the rim

Please do not talk to me
as though I have held a gun to your head
with my words
with eyes that stare through
the sadness
breaking in

Please do not look at me
as though I have walked away from you
without another word
even if
I have.

I've gone under
swirling around
subject to their order.

I'm not in control anymore.

They've got me dancing around the rocks
in a firm embrace,
constricting.
somehow so comforting.

Silky smooth, caressing, smothering
taking over.

I'm not struggling anymore.

Overwhelming feeling of calm,
they drag me further down-
I move freely.

So nice to be wanted.
So so nice.

The waves take me,
drowning my sorrows
quite literally.

I slit my wrist to erase the pain,
you look at me, and think I'm insane,
my eyes turn red, bleeding my tears,
and still you try to protect me from my worst fears.
Look at my scars then you will see,
why I can't seem to go around and fake happy,
yet you tell me you love me, that you'll forget,
for I'll soon be gone, and I'll be your greatest regret.
So let me die, broken and scarred,
I can't deal with life, it's getting far to hard,
everything's gone wrong, it's not worth trying,
so leave me alone because I feel like I'm dying,
I don't want you to worry,
because my life is ending in a hurry,
I'll be fine, and happy you see,
for death is what I wished for and soon it will be
T.L.H

Alone and unwanted is how I feel.
Writing these words is how I deal.
I guess it's better than any other way.
Like the one that takes me far away.
To the land of dark and nothing,
But it's better than here where my heart is crushing.
The future is scary but the now is worse.
I don't want to continue living out this curse.
Alone, alone, It's all I think.
It's here, It's there, It's when I blink.
I feel it in each and every bone.
Alone, alone, alone, alone.

You left me beautiful memories,
Your love is still my guide.
And though we cannot see you,
You are always by my side