You all say that I am very close to my deliverance

But I feel as though I am farther then ever before.

I'm selfish because i want your lips all the time
There's no time of day that I don't want you, you treat me like a princess
dont think I didnt hear how you defend me when I'm not around, I love to wake up knowing you are all mine
Telling me you love me everyday is nothing but music to ears,
Your amazing,

Your friends
They don't deserve your time
I don't want them to see your smile or get use to your laugh like I am
I would hate for them to love you like I love you because they won't want to let you go either,
I don't want you to go out in public
There's other girls
They might hear your laugh, or catch a glimpse of your beautiful eyes and they might fall in love you
And if you think there beautiful enough then there's a chance you could fall in love too

I don't want anyone else to have you
I envy anyone else who has because I love you.

If I admit that something you did to me hurt my feelings then that is me being vulnerable to you because I could have just Easily acted as if what you do does not bother me, but I don't and that's the advantage you have over me.

I'm in love with the air in the morning
And the chilly winds at night
I love the honesty that escapes from you when you've had way to much alcohol
My heart flutters at the sweet couples who express there love publicly
Smoothies taste especially good in the summertime
I'm in love with weird things and strangers and the idea of you

Once you entirely give yourself to someone they'll start taking you for granted.

People have made me so uncomfortable in society. They say be yourself but if they don't like it they'll say "Not Like That."

The way you left the relationship just shows the type of person you really are.

Why do you ask for brutal honesty
But turn ice cold when I give it to you?

Your face which was my coffee in the morning
That voice that was my lullaby at night
Those hands that soothed my soul
Your lips that made my skin burn
Your heart that belonged to mine
Will always love you

You want love but you cannot give love.

I loved him because he was the only boy that was actually afraid of loosing me.

One thing you'll regret most of all
Is staying quiet instead of saying what you feel
Because nothing's worse then unsaid words, un expressed feelings, or a mistaken broken heart.

You hide behind those auburn locks around your face
To shield yourself from the cruel world
You walk with your head held low and flat shoes, you wouldnt dare wear heels because you'd hate to cause any attention on yourself with the annoying clinking of the bad choice of shoes so you wear long sweaters and dark colors because you want the people who do see you to only see darkness, the color of your soul is what you call it
and you honestly believe that, you love to live in the shadows and one day you even laughed at yourself bitterly for loving your loneliness
You've forgotten that you were in public when you laughed and someone was watching you the entire time
He saw the way your eyes lit up when you smiled and he loved your deep dimples that shaped your face, he figured he could stare at your green doe like eyes for the rest of his life and he began to daydream about running his fingers through your hair
When you caught him staring you quickly looked away and cursed at yourself but his smile deepened noticing you cursed, he loved the idea of you having a feisty side, he liked you so much that he decided to take a seat next to you and that's when everything changed
The fact that he thought you were beautiful was incredible to you and like magic you no longer thought  the world was that cruel anymore since there were still good people like him In it,
You no longer walked in  flats anymore you began to think they were boring and out of season, you often opted for some pretty heels that clinked when you walked because you liked feeling like a supermodel walking the runway, you began to love your red locks of hair, you even decided to go to the hair salon and let them give you beach waves
Now your hair flows beautifully down your back.
Your fashion sense went from boring to fashionista every single day when you left your house you were wearing something new and gorgeous
You loved your new look, and you also deeply loved the new boy who brought all of this confidence out of you.

I miss you
Even when your sitting right here in my face.

Who wanted to hear about that scary dream you had last night?
Did he kiss you slowly to savour the moment? He asked me what I wanted to be when I was older and I told him I have no idea, but when he told me his dream he asked me do I think his dream is stupid and I told him it was smart, I smiled and told him to believe in himself like I do
He smiled and kissed me
Told me I was the sweet one

have you ever met a sweet boy?
I have
He'd send me multiple messages to make sure I'm okay, he promised to never give up on me and I'm not even a fan of forever but how come he makes it sound so promising? So belivable?
He holds me like he'll never get this chance again and traces his fingertips along my body as if admiring every part of me
And when Im around him I can't ever get the stupid grin on my face to go away because he makes me this way

Have you ever met a sweet boy?
Who'd  die for you, not because he hates his life because he loves his friends and family but he would give it all up just to see you live your life

Let me ask again
Have you ever met a sweet boy?
Who you only knew for only a month but you can see yourself with them for the rest of your life? A boy who goes out of his way to put a smile on your face? A boy who would move mountains to see you, one who would build a raging fire to keep you warm in the cold weather and would tell you a bedtime story even though you two are both too old but it comforts you?

have you ever met a sweet boy?

I watch you while you watch me watch you
Funny thing is
we are both blind
In both eyes

What is it with relationships and attraction?
Why do some of us expect someone else to complete us? Why are females most likely the ones who get there feelings hurt more then males?

***?
Whats up with that? Why is there such complication to it? Why does cockiness even exist? Why can't we all just be friendly sweet human beings who are kind to one another?

Why is the world so cruel?

Why is money the root to all evil?

Why?

I want friends that'll love me unconditionally
Friends that i can sneak out with at 3am to run to wawa and get smoothies
Friends that'll cry with me then we get revenge on that ******* together (:
I need people who are fun and not afraid of the world and would give the ******* to anyone who spoke bad about us
I need friends who I can run to and trust with my entire life, ones that will help me smile when the rain is pouring in my brain and won't leave when things look like they won't get any better.

What is love?

I can even feel the distance far away
When where texting.

Stronger then I thought.

Praising Jesus in your darkest hour
When your stressed and tired
You feel no hope in you heart
Things around you are not perfect
But there's got to be something worth smiling about


So praise Jesus.


"Thank You Jesus"

Because things can be bad right now
But they could always, always be much worse.

i prayed to have someone like you
And then suddenly the Angels sent you to me
I didn't know how handle any of it
I ******* it up I pushed you away
And I got no second chance.

My favorite hello

&

My hardest goodbye.

I feel so good
so in love with you

But after you leave
I feel like you don't exist anymore, you were just a void or

Something.

He was nervous I could tell
His smile was shaky and his eyes watered.
"Anna." He murmured looking me straight in the eyes.
He bent down in front of me and my eyes flew wide open, he quickly took something out of his pocket and he opened the box.
I gasped at the sight in front of me
"Will You Marry Me Annabell Collins?" His voice was so hopeful I couldn't help but gasp in admiration at this man and this gorgeous huge ring. I also couldn't get over the fact that someone was asking me to be with them forever. He wanted me...Forever. Every single day for the rest of our lives he wanted to wake up next to me. I couldn't be happier.

"Yes!" I cheered. "I will marry you!."

I was fine before I met you

       &


I'll be just fine when you leave.

Sorry for those nights when your eyes cried and you couldn't think of one reason to smile
You didn't deserve to be left alone with your thoughts which were attacking your conscious and making your insides bleed  
The feeling of fire burning in your veins is from that last conversation you had with the love of your life
And I'm sorry that you can't forget any of the details of what you've been through but your life is not over, you can not give up.

I almost thought I didn't have a heart
But that was until you left
And then I knew I had one because I felt it...breaking.

Rereading old messages wishing we could go back to that Beginning stage of the relationship where everything is new and our love was pure.

I was always hopeful.

The worst part is when you go to sleep
And I'm awake for hours
Waiting to hear your voice again.

All of his friends kept dying
And then You decided to leave as well
You told him he deserved better but all he wanted was you
Your so **** selfish
Because you left that boy and he needed you.

Do you really want her?


Or

Are you with her because you felt lonely?

Now I'm all choked up
I have no words
Well my mind does but my mouth won't let me speak
I'm gone
I wanna leave
Go somewhere alone, darkness
A place that is nothing

I can't
I can't
I can't
I can't
I cant
I can't
I can't



(Try Again)


I can.

The fact that you feel so utterly and painfully alone, Having flashbacks and vivid dreams of what use to be

but what use to be isnt your reality so its hard to face it.
Its so hard to come to terms with the fact that you need him but he doesnt need you

You made the mistake of making him your world and loving him more then you love yourself




To Be Continued. . .

Oh and some people Are not gonna like you but who the **** cares?

Getting your heart broken is terrible
But don't let it ruin you
Cry about it for a week
Then get on with your life.

A heartbreaker is something you swore
you'd never be
But what would you do
if I told you That a heartbreaker
is exactly
what you've become?

In a crowd I'm lost in it
Staring at each and every individual human being
Knowing that each and every one of them have there own lives, there own stories to tell.

I was in a situation where I didn't know if I should leave and do what makes me happy ,
Or stay in this uncomfortable situation and learn something.

It's a love so deep, so pure,
That i don't know how to handle it
So I push you away.

Like the love you have for me
That smile that stays attached to your face in my presence
I know I give you a rush
I make your heart feel a little bit better each day
And I'm not use to this love
I've never met anyone like you so please forgive me when I push you away
I'm being selfish I'm sorry
You told me that when I ignore you it makes your heart hurt
I'm sorry for that too
I keep thinking this is to good to be true, maybe it is or maybe I need to just let myself fall helplessly in love with you without any fear
Like you did with me

To wake up each day
Next to your warm body
And roll over to meet your lips
Those lips of which belong to me
Those lips of which have been mine since we've met
Your eyes of which tell a story of love

Oh How I Crave

Your body on top of mine
You breathe breathlessly into my ear
Sweet nothings
I Crave, I Crave
Just you

I knew you were heartless because when you smiled you looked dead.

"Forever" he mumbled carelessly. He expressed the word like it was another ordinary word.

"Forever" I reposnded like the word was a melody. I expressed it like my life depended on it. Because it did, and still I mean it today, even watching you with a girl that is not me.

"Forever" we both said. But only one of us meant it.

I've never met anyone like you

You actually like me for me

when do people actually find that these days?

Roses are red

Violets are blue

These are colors of flowers.

If he doesn't look at you like your the most precious thing in the world or doesn't treat you like your worth a billion bucks then darling he's not the one

Make sure he's proud to show you off to the world and loves to tell everyone how much he loves you, make sure he knows how to be a gentlemen and holds the door for you and makes sure you get home okay

If he doesn't look you in your eyes from time to time to tell you how much he loves you or makes no effort to express that love then honey walk away from that man

Know your worth and even add some change to it. Your amazing, make sure the guy you give your heart to knows that.