Gabriel Dorian

Gabriel Dorian Apr 2015

Who I Am

I can be an angel but a fallen one,
I can be a champion of the forgotten,
I can be a mayhem of a sinner's life,
I can be a preacher of all ****** souls

I may be one of the most flawed people
You ever crossed paths with,
I may be the most wretched soul,
Who dared to be with you

I can be a danger of a lonely stranger ,
I can be the humor of a mad man,
I can be a mantra of the lost,
I can be a slave of a circumstance

You may look down on me
Or see me only as a worthless one
You can throw me all your hate
And I will accept it with my arms wide open

I love your depth,
The way I am able to see the world in your eyes,
I will stand by your side
No matter how hard you push me away

But you must understand that
I am an honest sinner
When I say 'I'll stand by you'
I mean it,  for good

That is all I can do for you,
To be with you all the time,  Even when you feel the darkest one
I am always here and will never leave

The fallen will never let you fall by your own,
A mad man will always be drunk in love,
A mayhem will always try to fix you by all means
And a lover will love you with everything he has and will ever have.

I took the fall for you. I always stood by you. But you never saw it.

#love

Apr 2015

Eccedentesiast

Envy

I envy the stars that light up the sky,
That you look up to when you’re sad,
That you count when you can’t sleep.

I envy the moon that shines brightly in the sky,
That you stare at when you feel bad,
That gives you light in the midst of despair.

I envy the rain that showers you from above,
That you cry with in times of misery,
That embraces you with its small drops.

But most of all, I envy no one but the one you love.
The one you love who doesn't cheer you up.
The one you love who doesn't care.
The one you love who doesn't love you back.
The one you love who just broke your heart.

I hope you love me just the way you love the stars,
The moon, the rain,
And the one you love.

Part 1 of envy. The real poem is missing. -_-

#love #sadness #moon #rain #stars #sky #despair #envy

Gabriel Dorian Jan 2015

Nothing Hurts Better

Nothing hurts better than unrequited love;
When you lie awake beneath the wailing skies,
Then beneath the veil stars.
When you could do nothing
But to stare into the void
And feel the emptiness that you have to bear with.

Nothing hurts better that not to be loved by her;
When you stand in the dark,
Then you see her dancing with another man.
When you could do nothing
But to wish that you were him
And hope for a better feeling.

Nothing hurts better than love,
When it gives you an exquisite pain,
Then it almost consumes you.
When you could do nothing,
But to succumb to the pain
And scream all the sadness that you carry.

Nothing hurts better than her;
She gave you all this malady and melancholy
Then left you all alone.
When you could do nothing,
But to reminisce what you were long ago
And hallucinate that she stood by your side.

Nothing hurts better than her.

#love #sad #depression

Gabriel Dorian Jan 2015

All I Want

All I want is to hold you close,
To press your lips,
To embrace you with warmth,
To spend time with you,
And to runaway with you.
All I want is to be loved by you,
To be missed by you,
And to be guided by you.

But I won't happen.
You see me only a a friend,
Nothing more than that.
So all I want are just wishes,
Nothing more but

It's terribly hard. Once you love your friend, there's no more going back to what you were.

#love #sad

Gabriel Dorian Jan 2015

Dream

She stands in awe in her dress,
She wears it with finesse.
Her lips that I am yet to press;
I couldn't wish for any progress

Gabriel Dorian Dec 2014

Lost

I am not the same person I used to be,
I am lost, terribly lost.
I have forgotten who I was,
I am wretched in abyss

I ended up wounded,
I kept bleeding.
I misplaced my soul,
I do not know how to regain it by my own

Tears always stream down my face,
I have grown restless,
Every night I am sleepless,
Pondering about the what ifs

I am in a state of my undoing;
There's much of life I have to get back to.
In no longer bask upon sunshine,
I am used to stay here in the dark

I am terribly depressed,
I want to scream all the pain in me,
I want to let it all out
But I could not, I bear no strength to do it

It is consuming me.
I have lost my way.
I don't know where to go,
Or what path must I follow.

All I need is a bit of your love,
An ounce of your compassion,
A gram of your hug,
And a downpour of your attention.

I hold on to the very small light
That penetrates the darkness.
I hope that I will get through this,
In one piece.

I am terribly depressed.

#sad #depression #pain #lost

Gabriel Dorian Dec 2014

Stars

I used to love the stars. I used to imagine them so close to where I stand. But then the closer I am to them , the more that they lead me to my undoing. It was a purpose why they were so distant. They were to be loved but from a far.

It hurts to feel, it hurts to be.