I’m tired of hearing
the same things
“you’re amazing”
I don’t want to be told
I want to be shown
that I’m captivating
of your attention
that I’m worth your days
Words mean nothing
without the feeling
behind them
that evokes them
in the first place

I’d almost say unrequited love
although that’s slightly dramatic
see,
I won’t deny myself the simplest
of life’s pleasures
such as falling for another
yet he will
because
he fools himself into thinking
that we get to choose love in this life
that we get to decide the moment
we ridiculously fall
but
if we chose it wouldn’t be real
it’s illogical and daunting
but we can only take
what life gives

Last night my world caved in
so I went to you with baggage in hand
you didn’t turn me away, instead you
held it for a moment while you
listened and comforted me
you said ‘**** the world
for what it’s put you through’
you said I’m not too much
just a lot and someday I’ll find
someone who can carry it all
but for now you will
I have told you every detail
to the deranged story of me
and you stay
that’s enough for me
all I needed was to know I’m not alone
and you’ve given me more than that
by loving me consistently
thank you for being the best friend
even half a country away
I always needed