If I could turn back the clock I would
Not to erase what Iv done or who I'v become
Just to do something's I should have done
To grab that moment and experience things
I would risk the butterfly effect how bad could it be
but the clock only moves forward never back
It's a fact
so for now My dreams will be my way to change those days
To live them again and make more of them
With you always with you

What if you were my one and I let you go
I guess that's just something I will never know

If I was gone who would care
Would they notice I was no longer there ...

When I was both young and nieve I believed in everything
you told me of love, light and magical things
I wish I still believed this day but darkness soon came my way
Without you to walk with me I fell into the darkness it became my everyday
You left me too soon I wasn't ready for that
I see the shining star that I know is you, trying to light my life up like you used to do
Your just too far away dad I know you try every night but the light just not enough to save me from my dark filled life
I wish I could tell you how alone I feel this day but it's pointless anyway
The darkness is in me now my magic taken away the dreams gone the laughter too I don't know what to say I'm sorry I wasn't strong I didn't do enough your little girl lost the fight iv tried but I give up

Are we all lost or is it just me ?
I try to find my way out of this lonely place but I always find the same answer
There is no way out!!!
I get dragged back if I get too  close but is it just me ?
Are you lost too ? Can you even hear me ? Or am I really as alone as I feel ?
I don't know the answer but someone must !! is that you ?
Are you my salvation from everything dark , will you wrap me in your light and make me feel found or is that hope just the dream I need to make me carry on in this isolation I feel ???

I dream to be more, to lay in the woods surrounded by tranquillity to feel free
I am more than this life, more than a mum ,a wife ,a daughter I am more I am me
People don't see me anymore my dreams long gone
my spark dying I want to run, I want to be me
In my dreams the trees sway to the sound of freedom I am just me, in perfect harmony with everything not in a box with restrictions for the labels i am given
The sun does not judge nor the trees the breeze blows on everything regardless it's free
The birds sing a tune that shows who they are when do I get to sing my song when do I get to be free ?
All I am all I want to be is me !!