I keep trying to find the right words to write to you
But it turns out the same every time

"I wish I had told you sooner
and I know you are not one for many words"

and then...

I stop..

Every time..
Not because I am at a lack of words
but because I know, to you,
it will make no difference
If you could see the words
pouring from my chest
it would make no difference
because you did not feel the same
and you did not understand
how deeply I was rooted
in a place that I knew
I could never stay in
and so what good does it do
to write to the one plucked me
just to watch me wilt
and never looked back

Break me apart
Split open my sides
Let me bleed every reason
For me to give you
One more chance
You do not deserve

But I will give it to you anyway
Because what is one more
Crack in the glass
What is one more
Stitch in my heart
What is one more scar
To last me a lifetime

What is one more memory
To break me at the thought of you
You have already burned your smile
Into every brainwave
So that every time I hear another boy's laugh
I can’t help but hear your voice
Like a sweet melody in my ear
I can’t help but picture
Your smile on their faces

So what is one more
Heartache in the long run
What is one more chance
When in the end
It always comes back to you