Grief is the beginning of
Realizing that you still exist

It's a little bit scary
No--
******* terrifying
To know that
I can be the happiest person alive
For a moment
Then feel nothing at all the next

"It must
be horrible
to live
your life".

I hadn't spoken to you in awhile
Life just kept going faster & faster
I always thought we would make amends
But time cheated us in the end

We both didn't know it would end up like this
Sure we had our differences but we were father & son
But both so stubborn in the end who really won
Godspeed Dad my only father
I wish now i would have bothered

Don't be afraid
the man says in tears

Its perfectly normal
the doctor winces

You'll feel better in no time
*the therapist smirks

How can I collect the broken pieces of your heart
Whilst mine is falling apart?
Your words somehow remind me of never-ending misery
Sunday
everything seems so easy to be lived with
Monday
You put thousands knife til' I can hardly feel my breath
Each day
Every hour I spend to count how many times do I have to scream in your grasp over and over again