Gisele

Dec 2014

Jimmy King

I remember a time
Last year
When I'd wake up
Wanting nothing more
Than just to go back to bed

But then I met a girl
And I became happy
And I loved her
And I didn't even
Have to wait for my alarm
Every morning

Eventually,
My happiness spread
And I started getting
Out of bed
For other friends;
Other things

And that girl
Became jealous
And worried,
Evidently rightly,
That I'd stop needing her
And I'd want to move on

And somehow,
Ironically in large part
Because of her fears,
Because of her worries
Both of those things
Became true

And now
I almost dread
Getting up again
And I always
Just want to be asleep
Because I don't want her
To keep being sad

Dec 2014

Amit Shroff

Let her go

Hearts too have turned dark like the skies,
Cold cries echoes that of the birds,
Everyday an attempt to reach out to thy sought one.
There's a hope he tells.
Searching for that ray among the opaque,
Only he knows to pass a day in solitary,
Staring at the dark corner he a blinded man.
Let her go he hears, she an anchor that's too deep,
He is destined to sink with or without her,
He dived too deep, only can he see the light,
But not the hand.

#love #pain #dark

Dec 2014

Salva

Awake

Early morning dream,
Ends with a pain scream.
Snooze...
Flashbacks of peace,
Soared knees.
Need some *****.

Aware I am again, A.M.,
Missing zen.
Stretched followed by a moan.
Again being all on my own.

Repetition becomes definition,
Head noise, drums.
Boys firing guns.

Lack of med,
Feeling dead.
Not able to stand,
My brain lost the command.

Loud "tik tok",
Terrified by the sound,
It's still 6 o'clock
Patient, for the death hound,
Snapped, maybe possessed.
Being mind trapped, depressed,
Almost drowned,
By surviving at eleven feet under ground.

#sad #depression #pain #lost #thoughts

Dec 2014

Alex

Alone

I yearn for the comfort of familiarity.
I miss the way it felt, to sit next to you and laugh.
I hear the things you say about her and I can't help but wish that was me.
I wish I could say I was happy for you.
I'm surrounded by people, but feel all alone.
I wish you were here to remind me of who I am.

Dec 2014

Cripp

next to you

you wanted me to see your bookshelf right next to your bed
narrow space to step in
you lean forward and reach out to touch a weathered spine
and make a move to take one but change your mind

a beeper goes off
you bring my attention to another title
it brings me next to you and I inhale your fragrance of lost flowers
deep and heady into me

you turn halfway to me and smile with eyes which stun me
mute me
all I can do, is look at you, entirely dumbfounded which is when you turn to face me squarely
and rocks fly forth from mountains like pistons on a glorious day


  against the wall
then
next to you

then
against you

and
one step becomes

(no space)

next to you

within the circle of darkness comes a bursting light
into you

Dec 2014

it's ok

Crazy

I break my words, lost my world
Twisted over the days and took baths too long
My selfishness overcame who I ever was,
and I could keep spiraling down into self pity
I thought "It doesn't matter, I shouldn't worry about me."
When I realized I should be the first to worry about me,
and I should worry about me first.
Everything has been so eye opening, but now I can't stop to
close my eyes and escape from the confusion and rage
I wish it all could just stop,
So I can relive the days
when I cared about the sunrise,
and my eyes were so much brighter

#sad #worry #eyes #past #me #sunrise #relive