you can forget about me if you want but there's still a burning star in our skies named after the day you decided you loved me back

i've lost you,
haven't i?

it's just hit me,
and suddenly i'm numb with the
realization that things will never
be the same.

or maybe it's you who's lost me.
because how could i lose something;
someone i never had?

i couldn't.

I need money
And its not funny

There are some things
I would like to buy

I never have money
And I'm not sure why

let me live in a world
where we're going the same place
and the likes of you
don't scramble over the skeletons
of the dreams that I put to bed

let me live in a world
where you want to touch my skin
like i just want to see you
person to person
in this world we've got

it's all i've got you know
you
you're my biggest achievement
i'm proud of you because I can't be proud of myself

I've left a lot behind you know, and it feels like decades
it's only been a year
but there's parts of myself that i'm not sure I want to share anymore.

I put me on a shelf
behind statues and chipped clay pots
I pretend I want to get out
i'm unhappy where I am
but it's warm here
it's dry here
but my time is running out

lose everything
gain nothing
it's all the same when I feel like this

I don't know if it's because it's almost been a year
but I might be feeling worse than ever
but I can't find pieces to fit together anymore
I want to see you
because you make a lot of the pieces fit
i'm not sure if it's from bending and twisting the pieces
but i'm not so much pieces of a bigger puzzle
i'm more of a speck of dust floating in your universe

I want to tell you how I feel
but i'm not quite sure how I feel
and that's terrifying