Shelly Bear: Favorites

Nov 2018 Shelly Bear

Alex B

Someone stole my color
And threw it to the wind
Scattered like ashes
I don’t know if I’ll ever find it

Someone stole my color
From the face I know so well
I saw it in the cotton candy clouds
And the teal ocean swell

Someone stole my color
I guess that’s where it went
The world looks so much brighter
Like something heaven-sent

Someone stole my color
And that’s what no one knows
Depression isn’t black
It’s the color of a rose

It’s the light orange in a sunset
And the yellow of a peach
Light blue, my favorite color
So simply out of reach

Purple like my favorite eyeshadow
No, lavender, I’d guess you’d say
And my favorite music artist
Although he has passed away

Someone stole my color
Now everything’s too bright
I suppose sometimes darkness
Isn’t the opposite of light

Someone stole my color
So I’ll wear grey and black
As if in mourning
Until I get it back

Nov 2018 Shelly Bear

She

Nov 2018 Shelly Bear

CAM

She

She was your water,
But I could see the salt.

She was your heartbeat,
But I'd spilled the blood.

She was your siren,
But I was the shipmate.

She was your song,
But I knew all the words.

She was your heaven,
But I'd faced the hell.

She was your star,
But I could feel the heat.

She was the moon,
And I was Mercury.

I was always closer,
But she always felt the light.

I was your best friend,
But she was yours.

Nov 2018 Shelly Bear

Chasing Fireflies

Nov 2018 Shelly Bear

Sky

Chasing Fireflies

My existence flickers,
but only in my own mind-
I seem to be forgetting reality,
and the memories I've captured
are finding ways to escape the jar.
I chase them through the dew-speckled fields,
but they deceive me every time.

And sometimes I stop,
and fling myself to the ground -
roll to face the stars,
and nearly drown in my own tears,
and ask

"Why?"

#memoryloss #mentalhealth #existence

Jul 2017 Shelly Bear

Being Me

Jul 2017 Shelly Bear

RisingUp

Being Me

1...2...3...4
I don't want to be underweight anymore.
My intention was never to go this far you see
But overactive self criticism got the best of me.
Determined to gain life back.
But sometimes put off track
by the illusion of control from my perfectionist mind
I sometimes find myself in a bind
My mind at war
What for?
The voice is not a choice
But recovery is
Constantly resisting the urge to restrict
So I will no longer look sick
Life is tough.
Life is rough.
But if a group of small people can change how I see
I can learn to accept just being me.

#recovery #hope #learning #progress

Jul 2017 Shelly Bear

Pinky Swear

Jul 2017 Shelly Bear

Nickoli

Pinky Swear

I wouldn't change a thing,
Your heart never stopped beating for me,
Mine never stopped beating for you.

Sometimes showing you care means walking away,
Not leaving for ever but giving one another room to grow,
This isn't goodbye simply farewell for now.

You were the jelly,
I was the peanut butter,
Amazing together but even better separate.

For now we walk away from each other,
You'll always be apart of me and I'll always be apart of you,
Thank you for showing me what love and sacrifice really means.

#love #heartbreak #forgiveness #stillfriends #thankyou

Jul 2017 Shelly Bear

◦ A Boy and His Castle

Jul 2017 Shelly Bear

Nico Julleza

◦ A Boy and His Castle

Anxious
Dull, a boy is he
names he would not plea
eyes like baby blue-
lips a crimson hue
Feelings like me and you

Reclusive
Outsiders he'd not choose
In his mansions he bore
luring himself-
with enchanting lore's
drifting away, loosing woes

A Xenos
Traveling in his hallways
unknown, ominous
a wretched life he portrays
even in his heart, he'd say-
"Loneliness, such a Cliché"

Forsaken
Befriended, unseen
though he's not a devil
-for I believe
tortured, battered on thee
delude by his mistress' skim

He Left
portals out from misery
gone himself eagerly
then comes back, with such
-A Victory
for now, a statured man is he

Knights & Kings
upon bended knees
and everything he please
from a man to a boy
-in a dream
A Castle, now he redeems

— The End —