I have learnt to hate night,
It feels so long,
Lengthy.
I despise its quietness,
It's not an escape anymore,
It feels so much like a prison,
Only, same.
Only different.
It's roisterous.

Dalam hati,
Cemburu dalam kekosongan,
Ada merahnya perasaan.


Kebersamaan dan kebersatuan,
Penantian dan perhentian,
Kesabaran dalam kesayangan,
Maka ungulah jiwa dalam iri.

Akan hadir manisnya hari itu,
Bersabarlah duhai hati,
Nikmati birunya suatu dengki.

Promises are like candies,
Beautifully wrapped in hope,
Colourful yet deceiving,
I was high on your candies.

As I wait and wait and
Wait,
Your candies turn out grey,
Colourless and bitter,
Your promises turned into
a delayed devotion

But I waited,
Engorging on your sweetness,
Until they choke me hopeless.

What is the colour of your love?
Rainbow. What's yours?

Quiet. Silence filled in the space.
My heart heaved.
I breathe in the intoxicating smoke before I finally answered.

It's golden.
Sweet.
Thick like honey.

It's golden,
Tough.
Shines like amber.

It's golden.
Hot.
Burns like lava.

It's golden.
It's perilous.

Chaos hearts,
Chaos hearts,
Don't come to me,
I am not your sanctuary,
Nor will I ever be.

Chaos hearts,
Stop asking for me,
Do not commit a burglary,
A lover never will I ever be.

You can't catch her, that girl.
Why?

Smokes came out and the question was left to hung in the air.

Because she doesn't want to be caught,
She can drive you insane with her smile but she will take it back if you try to put her on leash.

So she's allowed to tease you but she will not be yours?
You don't understand. She doesn't want to belong to anyone. And is it really teasing if that's her playful nature?
Smile.

She's complex.
As complex as any battered souls.

Mana mungkin pendosa seperti aku berjalan ke syurga itu,
Mana mungkin manusia sesuci kamu tidak berjalan terus ke syurga itu.

Aku mampu bermimpi,
Aku mampu berdoa,
Akan tetapi hakim dunia tetap akan memandang sucinya engkau yang bertutup litup sebagai bidadari syurga.
Sedangkan aku, hanyalah si cela.

There is a hurricane in me tonight,
The wind of thoughts encircling my sanity,
Voices screamed at me telling my soul to scare the anger out,
For this anger has been wasted away in the shore of your heart.
Nothing changed.

I go through this hurricane daily,
Tomorrow is another day,
And I fight despite the exhaustion,
I fight this gargantuan disaster,
Alone.

Terbuai kau tinggi diatas,
Mengidamkan hidup bersamaku,
Sedangkan hatiku telah lama berkecai di dalam sangkar jiwa.
Aku sendiri hidup tanpa ia,
Apa yang mampu aku tawarkan?

Aku ada senyum,
Aku ada kasih,
Tapi aku tiada apa yang kau mahukan.

Here I go again
On this road called life,
I called mine a joke,
Help me I am broke,
But not money,
I don't need a twenty,
I need honey.

Here I go again
Threading this path,
Mine is comedic,
Borderline neurotic,
Marginally pathetic,
Definitely hectic.

Here I go again
On this road alone,
Thrown and blown to the unknown,
I am the unknown.

Here you go again,
On this lane,
Your laughter remain
One you couldn't contain.

Here we go again,
Life is amusing,
But never entertaining,
Life is comical,
But never logical.

Do I make sense?
Is this intense?
This life
At whose expense?