It does not matter
anymore but that does not
mean it does not hurt

8:50 PM
23/6/23

Silent are the ones who can’t speak for themselves
Because in the world outside they don’t exist .



Shell ✨🐚

He is my hero in the winter.
My role model in the summer.
My bravery in the spring season.
My conqueror in the fall season.
He is my dad and my total life.

He gave me life when I was dead.
He gave me health when I was sick.
He fed my life when I am hungry.
He filled me with the light of knowledge.
He filled my heart with love and fairness.

He is my bright, sunny days in life.
He is the energy source I am gaining.
He is my beloved mentor everywhere.
And he is more than a betterment of all.
He is my power, my love, and my dad.

i spent my life trying to please
someone with a twisted disease
i broke myself down
and tucked my feelings away
to become the person
they wanted me to be
i let myself be watched
through the glass of a two sided mirror
of a sociopath
i wallowed my spirit away
and begged for acceptance
but there’s nothing in the world
that i could do
to let the narcissist know
that i am human too

I fell in love with all of you.


I didn’t just fall in love with the best of you, like
The way your eyes light up the moon
The way your laugh makes me smile
The way your hand fits in mine
The way your personality stands out
The way your smile gives me butterflies,
I fell in love with all of you!

I fell in love with your scars,
The way you make sarcastic remarks
The way you feel helpless at 2am
The way you cry about something from years ago
The way you sometimes get angry
The way you sometimes want to be left alone
I fell in love with all of you.
I fell in love with the great in you
And I feel in love with bad you see in yourself
And the bad you see is the great I see.
Because I love every part of you,
Every bit.
I fell in love with all of you…..!

it's red never green
but its black when i can't see
when it pools in my eyes
and slides down my cheeks
the feeling so indescribably large
yet nothing but a point in the void
the only thing helping me navigate
is the faint sound of your voice
because i'm lost in nowhere
looking for a way to get somewhere that doesn't exist
at least not yet
but i still wanna look for it

heaven could be closer than i'd like to think
but i'll have to crawl through hell just to have that peace
and i don't think i have it in me
i can't afford to gamble with my last good thing

just skip me until i'm ready