O sweet pain, help me
your claws sends me to paradise
but it rips my soul and humanity
and that is too high of a price

I got nothing left, Im broke
and yet, I keep paying
I hate it I'm disgusting
all I wish is to be gone in smoke

Without a soul I'm dying
It hurts so much; I love it
I just deserve it

Life was short and painfull
but Im just dust
with a heart filled with rust

O douce soufrance, reconforte moi
Je te hait mais j'y revien toujours
Tes griffe sanglante me font roi
je te hait et m'en irai un jour

Esseyant de me tuer
Je suis mon Antechrist
Je suis mon Christ
Esseyant de me sauver

Je rampe a default de marcher
s'il n'y a de héro je le saurai
just, va t'en laisse moi soufrir

Si tu continue tu ve redevenir
rien de plus que poussière
avec un coeur de verre

dear humanity
for real can't you see
all you've done is insanity
aren't you proud
all this nature paved
so car can go around
all this power you craved
all this fame you sought
all of this is a lot
its a lot you done for your god
but he's just green paper isn't that odd ?

It started at age ten
wish I never did it again
Venom rushing down my vein
needed more, source of pain

to satisfy my crave
I started digging my grave
didn't care it wasn't real
I was just there for the thrill

One day I couldn't stop
Lost my girlfriend
lost my friends
just wanted to pop

For two years Ive been surviving
barely living
until I found something
trought an app
an article on NoFap

hope, a beacon of light
trought this site
I found taste in every bite
still in a fight
to get rid of my blight
change won't be overnight
We'll see if I can get it right

I was halfway to the top
When it pulled me down
left in this ghost town
I can't do much but rot

I wished so hard it wasn't there
I should try again, I couldn't care
he's the strongest and its clear
It got a mask to make me fear

Today I tried to escape, again
got far, but still under his reign.
Please, just let me be free

I only saw once Its face
I say ''it'' but he's part of me
He's the part I can't embrace