i'm cheating myself
with that one feeling - that
"may be he loves me secretly
without telling me"

taken a while, slowly,
slowly the things came,
collected for the box.

to say thank you.

i layed a leaf, a number,
ensuring it was not 13.

i would not have minded,
but she may.

the photograph fitted,
then she said she likes
rusted metal,
a piece from the boot dump
then. declared.

explained that at the
post office, to hope
it passes customs.

sbm.

There are four words better than
I love you
And those are
*I'm here to stay

In a flash
A beat of a heart
The decision was made
A choice that can never be taken back
Breathe
The blink of an eye
and your smell was in my nose
Sending mixed messages  everywhere in my body
Its a love affair that I just can't seem to get away from
I love you
then I hate you
Breathe
The decision was made by the time I ran into in the store
Just waiting for me to sheepishly say greet you with a smile.
My heart raced the closer we got
My thoughts bounced around
Reminding me of what the consequences may be
Breathe
But then I let my guard down even further
I let you dance with me in the dark
And dance with me in the light
I let you hold me closer than anyone else ever has
Breathe
Heart racing
words stuck in my throat
Mind rushing to find  the right thing to say
Can't catch my breathe
as I watch you walking out the door
I try to catch you as your walking away
but I stumble because everything you do
still affects me
Breathe
A blink of an eye
a beat of the heart
a decision was made that I will never be able to take back.

When we first met
I honestly had no idea
That you would be so
important to me