Thank God it's friday
Finally I'm going home
Place where I belong

Falling from the sky
like a rain, the ashes
from the forest- in flames
A fallen angel
trying to survive,
and breath through the fire
burning is her wings
burning is her lungs
she is bleeding blue
Didn't knew, angel's blood are blue
She realized, it was not a forest
instead, she's at the center of hell
it was a pandemonium
She definitely is not a Lucifer
But sure she was an angel
Slowly, she remembered,
Lucifer is her lover
Blinded by his promises,
She followed him
literally, in hell
She studied the place
wondering if she could dwell in it
in exchange of his lovers promising promises
She was giddy and excited
She's a different angel
Her lover then came
and called her the Angel of Death
She loved the new name
and decided to stay

Dancing with my own shadow
To the beat of my breaking heart
My silence is screaming to be heard
My soul wanting to be freed

I do not know to what should I be freed
I do not know to where should I be freed
I do not know what I seek
I do not know why I seek

Sure there is a hole,
But I do not know my goal
So how can I be whole?

I'm in the middle of chaos
Am I considered loss?
Or I really am a dross?

My body is losing my soul
And my soul is drifting from my body
My mind doesn't have a heart
And my heart doesn't have a mind

Yeah, my body, mind, heart and soul
Are always in contradiction
So I always end up in mess
Drifting into abyss of nothingness

Study while others are playing
Plan while others sleeping

Start while others are procrastinating
Decide while others are delaying

Listen while others are talking
Talk while others are babbling

Smile while others are frowning
Appreciate while others are complaining

Act while others are daydreaming
Believe while others are doubting

Rest while others are stopping
Persist while others are quitting

"If I lay here
if I just lay here,
would you lie with me and just forget the world?"*


I never knew that song before, until you sang it to me
It used to be our favorite song
And now, I could not listen to it without remembering you

As the lyrics flow to my ears
I was drowning in my own tears
Even if it brings so much hurt
I played the song again
to reminisce our memories
to remember our love

I pressed play again and again
to rewind our story
And it hurts so much
that our relationship has now become a story

It saddens me that to be with you again is to go back to our memories
It saddens me that to be with you again is to play the song again
It saddens me that this song can bring so much emotions and feelings, but never an *us

This thing is bothering me for quite long
I couldn't decide whether to go on
My mind is too tired to analyze
All the possible result of this in my life

It is just a matter of yes or no
But when I say yes
Endless what if's will bombard me
And when I say no
What about the possibilities?

I could not focus on the present
I think too much of the future
I worried too much of the unknown
And I couldn't stop myself

Maybe it is really not a matter of yes or no
Instead I should ask myself
If these decisions, will even matter in the future
And when I try to answer myself
There you go, I'll try to foresee the future again
And the cycle will continue, on and on