Cheerless sunsets have set me free
Just like the moons dreary face opened me
Terrors of the night have shaken me
But their earthquake roars and awakens me

All the Judas’s of the world brought me flowers
I plucked my finger on the blade of their thorns
My heart pumped blood pathetically, leaking
I was terrified, I dropped dead out of the light

I feel lost, but opened to a grand terrain
There are colors flickering in the chilling wind
Freezes first the skin then warms and frees within
I outstretch my arms and grasp the sky

I cannot fear for I do not care, welcome the unfolding
For this is life
e.s.

I am awake
And the world is cold
I want to go back to sleep
Not to grow old
For their eyes look
They do not see
Their ears hear
They do not listen
I am hardly here
To them I am just passing
I want to believe I matter
Like as a child
When it was only I
Inside the warm womb
But now I see the world
And they dont see me back
I want to slow down
But they are all moving so fast
A blur
A grain
A speck
A passing
What is it even that I am asking.

E.S.

Your voice boomed
Through every room
Into the dim halls
The echo was everything
Everything but you

I searched your eyes
You told me to do so
I felt birth that moment
The pain, the blood
I felt the end as it begun

It is all or nothing to you
A furious earthquake
Knocking down every wall
Or nothing, absolutely nothing at all

The nights get shorter
Your hands grow colder
The moments there
And then suddenly,
Into a great abyss
Into a black hole
Everything is older
Even the drugs now
Give me the cold shoulder.

E.s.

The weight of the world
Sits on his chest
As he breaths
He grasps for it
Rose petals fall
Straight from his head
As his eyes burn
Like fire, again, and again
Mouth sewed shut
Her needle pokes through
Stippling his heart
Like a car wreck
The moment his hands left
He can't remember
When he lost control
Drunk driving
Into her soul

E.s.

The blood
It traces
Every feeling
Known to man

The moment
It stays
Only fleeting
We are dying

Make love
Setting the memories on fire
It's all you have
It's never leaving
Always breathing
Until the last man forgets

e.s.

You wish to be alone
as the crowd from a distance smothers you
you look at the smeared marks
and into the cracks
the wall silences everything

mom grabs at your shoulder
making you turn
grasping you close
you feel it is almost absurd

uncle waves, his hair is long
you almost say so
but then the moment is gone
fleeting, screaming, it all moves too fast
when people are around
moments never last
the woodpecker beating at your chest
keeps you breathing all your breath
you know you're stupid
you dont know why you do it
yet you can't help but feel it's claws

scratching on your left
digging deep into your flesh
dripping with apathy
you ***** on catastrophe
a time bomb, nudged into your brain
you almost can't wait
to go insane
ha ha, you know it is true
you want to be alone
but you refuse

e.s.

If I just stood
Blank expression
No words at hand
Just a soul alone
A broken soul
Would you feel compassion
Do you see what is whole?
Must I create
Must I awake the dead
Or would this be enough
Silently standing
Not even a touch

When you watch me
Do my eyes speak
Can you hear me
Over your minds own condition
Can you feel
What is not seen?
I spill truth
For my soul is not clean
I am brave
I know you are the same
Allow the walls to cave
For we all are falling down.

We are loudest when we are silent now.