You wish to be alone
as the crowd from a distance smothers you
you look at the smeared marks
and into the cracks
the wall silences everything

mom grabs at your shoulder
making you turn
grasping you close
you feel it is almost absurd

uncle waves, his hair is long
you almost say so
but then the moment is gone
fleeting, screaming, it all moves too fast
when people are around
moments never last
the woodpecker beating at your chest
keeps you breathing all your breath
you know you're stupid
you dont know why you do it
yet you can't help but feel it's claws

scratching on your left
digging deep into your flesh
dripping with apathy
you ***** on catastrophe
a time bomb, nudged into your brain
you almost can't wait
to go insane
ha ha, you know it is true
you want to be alone
but you refuse

e.s.