I lowered my tone when I spoke to you,
I had chocolates today, chocolates that I dislike,
I laughed a lot recently, cracking stupid jokes,
I tried my best to be kind, even to strangers,
I craved for apple pie today those I usually hate,
I stopped bugging people, when I'm sad,
I learned how to be positive, by escaping,
I started drawing again because I miss it,
I walked alone on the street today, smiling like an idiot
I refused to get mad, because I shouldn't be

I'm trying my best

please
notice me

and help me

it was at the age of twenty one
where I learnt that people change

it was at the age of twenty one
where I bid goodbye to my youth

it was at the age of twenty one
where I realize that my BFFs are acting strange

it was at the age of twenty one
where I learnt the truth

that this year
I'm celebrating my birthday alone

staring out the window and noticed my neighbour's lavender bloomed
it's a beautiful day but why am I in my room?
oh it's because my heart is aching as if there's a wound

something is making me feel bitter
trying to write a poem that can express what's the matter
maybe after writing, I'll feel better

but honestly,
I'm just lonely.

tired,
not necessarily physical,
sometimes mental;

there are things you want to change,
but afraid, you lock yourself in a cage;

there are things you want to say,
but couldn't, you turn around and walk away;

things are changing, you know that,
trying hard to cling on, you look mad;

people don't always stay the same,
sometimes, they even forget your name;

I honestly don't know why I'm bothered,
I guess, I'm just a little tired.