I kiss you. Goodbye. I wait under you- watch until the plane
goes up. above my by miles, away from me my countries.

The gravel road of our driveway is cool and firm
the sand of the desert is hot and shifting and you are gone

You promise to be home soon- we both know you won't but pretend to believe this is a promise you can keep

you will not be home soon, if you come home at all
I miss you i wait for you i want you here
but you don't come, you can't

I miss the touch of your skin,
I miss the way you looked at me,
It’s been months and the pain is unreal,
This deployment is tearing me apart,
I know that it will be worth it,
Seeing you in those spread out months,
It makes all of the tears,
pain,
and lonely days worth it,
I turn onto your side of the bed,
Where you should be but you aren’t,
Incase you don’t find what you’re looking for,
Incase you miss me,
Incase you are missing my love,
Incase you wanna come home,
I will be right here,
I see you in everything I do,
I can’t sleep because all I’m doing is missing you,
You were the light,
Now it all just seems so dark,
Terrified that you won’t come home,
Waiting for the uniforms to walk up to my door,
I need you to come home,
You’re out there protecting others,
You didn’t leave to fight what’s in front of you,
You left to protect what’s behind you,
Please come home,
Your family misses you,
But I get it you have a country to protect,
I will be waiting right here when you come back.

I miss driving 8 miles just to try to see you
But this distance is taking me to the ICU
I get so high now days, I think I see two
Trust so low. Constantly asking and need to see proof.

Got my heart ripped out and you started to tear it
And I ran away not knowing you'd be the one to repair it
Regretting physical moments that I ain't mentally cherish
That was my heart, my love, I'd never let you share it!

My heart was on my sleeve but I'll never let you wear it!
And my hate towards you, I swore I'd let you hear it
If a day came that I met her, you better bet she'd fear it
Man the **** we had, you KNOW another could never come near it

With time everything suppose to get better
So why is it that I keep writing to you my "last" love letter
Confessing my love and burying the hate
But constantly I hear that me loving you is too late
Wanting to hate the person that you've become
But I can't find hate in my heart for the one I love
It's crazy how you have changed
Into a person who doesn't even deserve to be called your name
So I'll call you stranger cause thats what you are to me
I don't recognize this person you're wanting to be
You were once my perfect 10 but now you're what I hate to see
Your golden heart and personality was what drew me near
But now this anger and disrespect is what I fear
I hope you come back one day cause this person I can't bare to see
I fell outta love with you
Cause you changed & fell outta love with me