You know what?
I am tired
Tired from being sad,stupid,ugly
In the last two years
I destroyed my life in every possible way
I was the best in school
Now I'm nothing
I was skinny
Now I'm not
I'm tired of keeping everything in me
Tired of smiling and acting like I'm having a great time
Acting like i dont care about my problems
But keeping so much inside is making me crazy
When i'm alone i burst
I start to cry and i can't stop
My head is hurting me,i cant breath
Feeling so much,but being so numb
Trying to express myself but i dont have any words
Hurting my self,so i can be calm again.

I sit here
In a quiet surrender
and bruising pain
as you continue
to walk the road ahead
and i sit here
wondering
what could have made you
want to leave me
behind.