Wandering through
this electronic age
where no one offers
me sustenance,
I never give up
trying to feed them
poetry.

  ~mce

Take this kiss upon the brow!
And, in parting from you now,
Thus much let me avow—
You are not wrong, who deem
That my days have been a dream:
Yet if hope has flown away
In a night, or in a day,
In a vision or in none,
Is it therefore the less gone?
All that we see or seem
Is but a dream within a dream.

I stand amid the roar
Of a surf-tormented shore,
And I hold within my hand
Grains of the golden sand—
How few! yet how they creep
Through my fingers to the deep
While I weep—while I weep!
O God! can I not grasp
Them with a tighter clasp?
O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

The noon's greygolden meshes make
All night a veil,
The shorelamps in the sleeping lake
Laburnum tendrils trail.

The sly reeds whisper to the night
A name-- her name-
And all my soul is a delight,
A swoon of shame.

Squinting eyes in the pale sunlight
Does not give me the freedom to know that I'm warm

Loud noises and bitter drinks
Make me numb but not happy

Because knowing that hole is still there,
That void that I cannot bare,
Is waiting to be full of something I'm afraid others cannot digest.

would it be selfish of me to say
          *i can't help...
     i hurt too much

I never meant to run
You never meant to hurt
Neither of us never mind to do that

You said it was just too okay
I guess none should be alright
How could you just keep your eyes shut,
While in the same time one begins to die?

You would never care
For I never stop to try
You would never realize
Unless I keep away and hide


Darling, that's how i ran away
Dont look for me even for awhile.

Dec, 23 2015.
I'm done with you.