I love(d) everything about you
every fibre, every detail

I love(d) watching you
whenever you weren't looking
your serious face, or when you
walk ahead of me
the way you walk
and the way you move your shoulders

I love(d) the veins on your hands
as if they're a road map
do they lead to your heart?

I love(d) the way you smile
and your face
too close to mine
and I would say "stop"
but I love(d) staring at those
brown eyes of yours

I love(d) the talks that we have
late at night
when we are both vulnerable
and you'd tell me things
you've never told anyone
and so will I
together, we'll share,
this secret

And from time to time
I'd sneak a look
and your eyes would meet mine
then i'd pretend it was merely a coincidence
silently happy, that you were looking too

I love(d) when I would act silly
and then you would join me
we'd act silly together, and they would wonder
why those 2 kids aren't normal
but we both know
that being normal is boring

and I am sorry
that my walls, which i built
are too high, too thick
and I wanted to let you in
so I'd try
and try
and try
and kick at them

but they're too high, and too thick
for your patience
were wearing thin

I despised myself
for building such walls

and whenever I am near to giving up
I would remember those times
we spent together

so I'd kick at those walls,
even when you're simply just
touching it,
not trying to break it anymore

those happy memories
ah, good times
good times

but then I'd hear my alarm
at 6 in the morning
knowing it was just a dream

and my walls are finally breaking

but something else broke together with it
realizing that dreams, will only be dreams

You make me happy
And you make me sad
Because you're too good to be true
But you are anyway
I don't know how you do it
You're perfect for me
And it is not infatuation
Because I see your flaws
But I like(love) you anyway
You're unattainable
It's like reaching for the stars
Because how can someone like you
Fall in love with someone like me
You're the kind of person
Who I don't want to lose
So maybe just friends
Is easier than lovers
And that's why you make me sad
Because all I can ever be to you
Is friends
Even if I want something more
But that is all I deserve

He stands at your bedroom door while you're at the edge of your bed, staring at him. There are wilted white lilies on top of your bedside drawer. He sits at your bed, not too close to you, but close enough you can feel the heat radiate from his skin. You feel like this distance is too far, you want his skin to clash against yours, his lips at the nape of your neck. The street lights pour from your window, his face illuminated with it. His face looks so innocent, yet deadly because of the light. Red for passion? no. Red for blood. Red for deadly. This is not love. This is destruction and pain. He reaches out for you, and you moved too eagerly. He holds you without care, his nails scratches your back, too deep. You're in too deep. Red for stop. His lips crushes against yours, and he tears off your dress, and he kisses your neck, and you realized that he has your heart in his hands.  You didn't pay attention to details. Red for deadly. You're going crazy and wild, you are empty handed. You finally realized that his ribs are intact while yours is wide open. Red for too late. There's a broken vase with wilted white lilies on the floor, and his lips ******.

beware of her
she can make you feel
and make that ice heart of yours
beat

to her rhymes you will be moved
her words will make you cry
it will make you feel
the pain she felt,
or the love she wanted the world to know

beware of her,
because if you love this deadly poet
she will carry you far and wide
across continents,
and seas

she will sway you away in reality
and bring you to her world

she will let you feel the love she feels for you
and you will drown in it
you will realize that her heart only beats at the sound of your name

you will be hypnotized,
you are now under her spell

but you have to realize
that this deadly poet
is sad inside

no, she cannot tell you exactly why
but let her poem speak to you,
do not force her,
but rather understand her

and if you commit half-heartedly
then leave her,
she doesn't need you

no, she needs a person,
who will be strong for her

someone who will watch her intentsely
the way she does to you
and you need to admire her imperfections
as if she couldn't be more perfect than she already is

leave, if you can't understand this world she lives in
where both reality and fantasy resides

because if you never see the sun when you look into her eyes
while she sees the whole universe within you
then don't fall in love with her
because surely she already loves you
the moment she wrote your name
on a piece of paper accompanied by a rhyme

You said you love me and that you care
I really thought you did
but friends shouldn't make me feel bad
for being sad

You always want me to be happy
but that's unrealistic
because we are sad beings
in this lone universe
isn't that why we always crave to be with people?

I thought I was happy
but I was wrong
I simply forced myself to be
because I know you'd leave again
and you are a drug to me
I simply cannot live without

But you demand so much from me
you crush my bones into dust
and you like to take control of me

In a simple sense,
you have the wheel
and you never let me learn how to drive
and when we reached a wall
you simply jumped off and deserted me
instead of taking a turn

they asked us what is our relationship,
you answered "nothing"

he was a demon,
considered himself monstrous
of course he is,
even the flowers wilt
when he touches them

he was afraid to touch
the person he loves the most
always kept her apart
even if he wanted to held her

she reminds him of a flower,
so fleeting,
fragile,
wouldn't she crumble
if he touches her?

Death knocks at your door
Saying It's time
As you clutches your life
With your broken and ****** hands
You don't feel ready
And you never will
Because you ran out of time
To find happiness
You look back
And see you never really
Tried
And now death will look at you
With pity in his eyes
But then he says again It's time
No goodbyes
No I love you one last time
And your last words were
*Why me?

You've been on my mind
Once
Because you never left

Whenever and wherever
I just suddenly
Remember you

The way your skin
Feels, as you lean on me
Or the way you breathe
Deeply as if it was your last

The way your eyes twinkle
And your lips curves
As you smile and talk about
The things that you love

Every thought or every action
I make
Makes me think of you
As if every path
I take will always lead
Back to you

And I just love
Being with you
Because you make me forget
All the horrible things
As if they don't exist

How would I know
If this is love?

You have to know how to shoot
In order to be with me
Know that I'm a danger
Even to myself
If I tell to you run
Don't look back
Because I don't trust myself
And neither should you
I'm a loaded gun
Never to be trusted
We can pretend,
But a love like this
Wouldn't last

I know what you are;
You laugh at my own demise
I hear it still,
so loud
and yet painful
I see you smile
as my blood meets the ground
you're mocking me
I see your mouth move
and form a word
idiot
you seemed to say
but i couldn't hear
over this piercing sound
of my tears
my skin stings
because it's covered
with fresh wounds
where did this come from?
I am crestfallen
how could you?
how?
and yet you just stare at me
with those eyes,
you seemed entertained
watching my own destruction
that's right,
I know who you are
you're *me

Every passing year
My memory grows weaker
But I don't want that
Because I know that
One day I will forget
What exactly the colour
Of your eyes are
Or the little things
That you always do
Which I grew to love
So I try to write
And write with all my might
Every detail,
Every word
But still
The memories are
Starting to to slip away
From my grasp

I use my head
before I use my heart
but in so many ways
you are smarter than me

It keeps me breathing
knowing that you're by my side
but the thought of us falling apart
makes me dread of the future

do you believe in destiny?
is this what you call fate?
will you believe me when I say i do?

my darling, I hope your dreams
are as sweet as mine

Sometimes I catch myself smiling
and realize it is you that I'm thinking

and I always ask why me?
because you could've fallen for anyone
who is infinitely better than me

In so many ways,
I've wondered what you goes through your mind
do you think of me as often as I do?

I just hope that this last
this whimsical love of mine

I told you I'm sad
Thinking you'd understand
But instead you said
get over it
But the walls are too high
Because it was built
From years of hatred
And doubt
So tell me how
Can I get over it?

You expect too much of me
Even though I have nothing
Yet I tried to give you my "nothing"
Which is my everything
And was left with *nothing