A smile that holds my heart
A person not willed to play the part
A creeping feeling that makes me sink
A thought that causes me to over think

A hug that steals away my affection
A face that seems too close to perfection
A stupid text that gives me hope
Only too tie my throat with a rope

A set of eyes that have me
A voice that sets me free
A note of a final goodbye
One that made me cry

Gorgeous is
What she is
Gorgeous is
What I’m not

Yet your smile holds my heart
Even your not willed to play the part
A creeping feeling that makes me sink
A ****** thought that only makes sense in ink

Gorgeous is
What she is
Gorgeous is
What I’m not

Your hug still steals away my affection
Your face still seems too close to perfection
Your stupid text still gives me hope
Only too tie my throat with a rope

A set of eyes that have me
A voice that sets me free
A note of a final goodbye
One that made me cry

- E. A. F

I have a fairly small confession to make
My heart is fine, its not about to break
My eyes no longer glisten as much
And my smiles are from loves' gentle touch

I no longer find myself faking grins
Or forcing blades to rid me of my sins
I no longer wish for that eternal silence
No.. I no longer act against life in defiance

- E.A.F

Frowns of sorrow raise,
No one stands to praise
Joy merging with the carnage
Warriors trapped in their own cage
Fleeting maidens seek out aid
While souls turn dark and start to fade

A kingdom crumbles to dust
Fir the king could not contain his lust
Which lead to a witch crowned queen?
She who is never truly seen…

He mistook her as a truthful wife,
Even though she was destined to take his life,
A stab to the chest and betrayal occurred
Yet, his death was not enough to cause her black heart to be cured

Still old and weak,
She saw a frightened tear run down a little girls’ cheek

Her black hair, pale skin and red lips screamed beauty
The witch walked over and explained her death was her duty

A scream echoed through the hollow halls,
Blood smeared and stained these dreaded walls

For, her skin as pale as snow,
Her body still in need to grow,
Her hair so dark yet it seemed to shine
And her red lips glistened against the light, as if to say, “I’ll be fine.”

I'm sleeping through storms
'cause I don't want to see  the thunder
I'm sleeping through storms
'cause I don't want to have to wonder

I sleeping through storms
'cause I don't want to feel the rain drops
I'm sleeping through storms
'cause I don't want to be there when my bubble pops

I'm sleeping through storms
'cause I don't want to see the floods
I'm sleeping through storms
'cause I want to wake up to the rose buds

I'm sleeping through storms
'cause I want to see the blue skies
I'm sleeping through storms
'cause I don't want to hear these lies

I'm sleeping through storms
'cause I don't want to feel anything
I'm sleeping through storms
'cause I can't bare to hear one more tragic thing

I'm sleeping through storms
to leave the past behind
I'm sleeping through storms
Hoping that my mind will rewind

- E.A.F

I thought I had found my diamond in the rough
Although he was closed off and tough
I still saw the side to him that not many could
Even past the stomped rose petals and the burnt cabin wood,
The faked smiles and the hollow laughs,
And the fables about not being able to find our other half's

I still heard the altruistic tone to his thump-thump thumping heart
I saw the high percentage of hope on my colour coded chart

I sensed a shivering lightning spark
That ceased in me
All that was so dark
Yet it came with a fee

The cost of eternal bliss or misery
Turns out I was wrong about our chemistry

- E.A.F

This air so dark and unsanitary
It reeks of smoke and carbon dioxide
Yet breathing it in is mandatory
And there is no place to hide

And if we don’t soon start a revolution
We will continue to curse and sentence this world to death
This generation may not see its extinction
But our descendants will feel it taking it’s last breath

- E. A. F

Maybe I'm the person who backs away from compliments
Who sits on the sideline to watch the nights events
The one who doesn't like the spotlight on her
Who has a feeling she's got the answer but isn't sure..

Maybe I'm the person who sits on her hands in class
You know, that person who always avoids the mass
The one who doesn't do well with the crowded halls
Who always looks away from the teacher when she calls

Maybe I'm the person who hides behind book covers
Because the books tell of dragons, fairies and lovers
Worlds where she's the princess, soon to be queen
Or a kickass ninja fighting robot machine

Maybe my imagination takes me to far away places
Maybe I imagine the friendliest faces
Maybe that's because no one in reality was friendly
Maybe you should look at me and see me differently.

- E.A.F

I’ve been left with countless memories, moments of us
All the feeling we once shared, like love, happiness and trust

But my heart is aching
Its breaking
I don't know what to do now
I don't know when, where or how
No, not anymore,
I’m too sore

I can see the fork in the road
I’m taking its as the code
To see if I live my happily ever after
Even if I can't hear the laughter
Or see the smiles
'Cause I’ve traveled far away, for miles and miles

Out of sight, just like I wanted
But I can’t help but feel haunted
By what u left me
By what we could be

I’ve walked bare foot in the rain
I’ve tried to control the pain
But I can’t contain
No, no no
What I’m feeling
No no no

'Cause I Thought you loved me
But turns out I was blinded by glee
this fork lightened the shadows
And opened all the doors and windows

And when the light seeped through
I realized that we were finally through

- E. A. F

He's got those hazel eyes
He's got the perfect lies
He makes the world go round
He's like a king just crowned

He stands front and centre
He'd never need a mentor
He has that natural swag
He makes me want to gag

He's everyone's everything
But they don't see a thing
They don't see his cruelty
Or his true dishonesty

He may seem just perfect
But that's incorrect
He's a thorn to a rose
Its his true pose

Yet he somehow thrives
I don't understand how he survives
His life isn't independent
Yet it seems so splendid

He always lies and cheats
And always somehow repeats
He makes my life so difficult
So much so, its makes me see every fault

- E.A.F

We are thousands of miles away
But In my heart you will forever stay
Our drifting souls become a cluster
As the bonds we make tighten faster

Our souls may be two separate entities
But they are bound by a single link
Which are our shared qualities
Lettered on the dotted line in ink

- E.A.F

I've put my fears to the winds
And I'm never looking back at my sins
I'm moving far away from here
I'm striding toward a future so clear

With the suns' rays kissing my skin like a lullaby
And blue skies no longer passing me by
And even if they hide behind weary clouds
It'll be like when I found you hiding in the crowds

A dandelion amongst a field of roses
Its beauty's hidden under our noses
A sight imagined, but not commonly seen
Until a dandelion's roar was silent and clean

Unheard, mistaken and a tad broken were you
Loud mouthed, understood and glued together I am
I may not understand you all the way through
But give me a lifeline and you'll know for sure who I am

See I chose the dandelion instead of a rose
Because your beauty no longer hides under my nose

- E.A.F

My blanket isn't the same anymore
It's empty without your cold feet
My arms aren't the same anymore
Since I can't feel your heart beat

My kitchen isn't the same anymore
It's kettle doesn't boil water for you
My ears aren't the same anymore
Since I can no longer hear you

My heart isn't the same anymore
It's got a longing only you fulfill
My eyes aren't the same anymore
Since I can't see the smile of my Phil..

- E.A.F

If this is delusional then I never want to see reality
I'd rather be insane and live out our small infinity


Where we are who we are despite the outsiders
Where we can live life and survive like fighters


And no matter what you are to all those others
I will always see passed your facade of colours

We can stray along a thread of free impossibility
Or dangle from the rooftops of a towering city

- E.A.F

We all have that speck of dirt
It may be your lack of comfort
Or the past and all its anger
But at times its of no danger

It could be your need to be you
Or your darkest inhibitions coming true
There are all kinds of outcomes
Some with resolutions or more problems

'cause we all live in a little glass box
As true as waves hitting the shores rocks
We find ourselves surrounded by ourselves
Not knowing about the dust on the top of our shelves

Others will tell us their opinions and views
But that's like playing with a bomb fuse
We deny our faults in front of them all
No matter how big or how small

We are oblivious to who we are
We don't know if we're dust or a star

- E.A.F

A puff of someone else's smoke here and there
Turned to a box everyday and everywhere
She said it was an addiction of no danger
That its nothing too big or too major

But then that not too major thing turned into a disaster
She started coughing out her lunges everyday after
That not too big of a problem turned into a genocide
A genocide to her lungs that are dying inside

A cough a day kept the doctors near
No apple would change that simple fact
We begged and plead for them to fix her
But they said that its impossible to do that

So we waited in agony
We waited for her tragedy
We waited for things to change
But guess that was out of our range

Since she's gone gone gone
There's no pain for her anymore

-E.A.F

Your hands have stopped ticking for me
Yet I am frozen and you are free
You no longer have to tick tock
You have finally unbinded your lock

Where as I am drifting through space
Going nowhere without a single trace
I am lost amongst the empty galaxies
Like a child lost to the unforgiving seas

In my mind I hear your noise happen
I look around gaining my lost hope then
I think to myself that maybe its you
I lift my shoulders to see if its true

Tick.
My head swings up praying its no trick
Tock.
My heart aches to be free and unblock

Tick tock, tick tock.
I hear as you once again bind your lock

- E.A.F

Chaos seeps through my hollow door
Making my soul beg and plea for no more
This chaos hits me right in the chest
The slumbers me into a final rest

I open my eyes and look down
And I see my open-mouthed frown
My scarlet eyes are lifeless and dead
Guess I no longer have a road ahead

I will not know the wonders of love
I'll have no worries as I look above
For my heart is as pure as white
So there shouldn't be much for me to fight

The entrance to those clouds showed its way
Yet sadly there was darkness hiding it away
Dark figure danced in silhouette
No faces nor figures to be met

Only shadows and chaos dancing here
I prayed I wasn't the song they hear
For I wished for the stairs to reappear
As I ran and ran from the silhouettes in fear

My body left lifeless as my soul fled
My soul cried out as my body bled
I was alone with chance to get home
Then a voice reached out and asked me to atone.

- E.A.F

If I were beautiful, would you love me more?
If I were magical, would i be the only one you'd adore?
If I were boisterous, would you laugh until unable?
If I were settled, would you feel more stable?

If I were spontaneous, would we have an adventure?
If I was fast-reacting, would our life move in a blur?
If I were lonely, would you kiss me at the kissing booth?
If I were mysterious, would you want to know the truth?

If I was rude, would you think of cursing?
If I wasn't me, would you fall for this person?
If I were me, would you want to be my joy?
If I were me, would i be more than your toy?

If I was optimistic, would you seal the deal?
If you had empathy, would you feel what I feel?
If I were a star, would you see how you make me shine?
If I were your love, would you see beyond the lie "I'm Fine."

- E.A.F

We’ve all lived in that dark dark place
Where no one ever came face to face
I saw everyone’s walls as they rebuilt
I searched for the answer to what we all felt

I felt myself fall and tumble
And watched as my own walls began to crumble
Yet I couldn’t help myself
‘Cause I wasn’t myself

And even though they said it gets better
Why did it feel like I was sleeping on a stretcher
Or the cold concrete floor of lives gutter
‘Cause I couldn’t find my way out of that clutter

Until I was pulled to side
And told it was no time to hide
It was time to stand up
And recognize we were all fed up

Fed up with society
Fed up with our anxiety
Fed up with their priorities
Fed up with most of humanity

So we smashed our walls to dust
We began to learn that the key was trust
Trust that we will never again go down that *****
Trust in one anothers hope

-E. A. F

A comfort I chose to loose
It's sad to hear this news
But I don't know what to do
When it comes down to you

My heart says multiple things
While my head thinks and thinks
Maybe I should stay and see
Or just leave things be

Let the wind blow how it does
Let our hands move from this
Let the birds and bees buzz
Even if you're everything I'll miss.

- EAF

We live in a world of consequences
Where freedom and safety are kept in fences
In this world everyone seeks one in the same
But they treat our future like it’s a game

But I don’t want to play ball
I want to fight for it all
I want freedom, fraternity and equality
But not for my generation alone, for an eternity

You see, foreigners may see the buzzing bee’s and the singing sparrows
But we live in the cruelty of the shadows
Where ****, ****** and poverty prevail
Where justice only seems to fail.

But I don’t want to play ball no more
I want to fight for it all
I want safety, choice and an education
Not only for me, but the entire nation

We may not all live to see my vision
But I know that’s never our decision
This just provides an easier choice to make
‘Cause I can’t sit around, I’ll break.
For while I have opportunity,
The rest of my people, my community
Are out there suffering an unjust cruelty

I wont play
I will fight today
They may see me as young, naive and inferior
But all I’ve got to reply is I’ll defeat ya

So stand up and fight with me
‘Cause what would our future be
if we let this be the reason to our defeat
And the unbecoming greet
To our own dooms day
‘Cause if we leave it, it won’t go away.

- E. A. F

My world seems so different to yours
Its like I'm the moon and you're the stars
You get to twinkle at all the good and bad
While I smile at what I wish I had

You get the butterflies and flowers
While my feet dangle from the towers
You get to smell the roses everyday
As I feel myself slipping away

I found myself wishing away the years
Hoping that it'd cure me of these tears
Oh I find myself sinking far to deep
To a dot on the atlas I'd hate to keep

Getting washed up with lives current
As I wish for it to all be different
I remember you and how I wished it
Wished that I was you instead of me
Instead of this imperfect
Instead of this imperfect me

- E.A.F

Every second, every day
I wish you never went away
Its been more than a year
Since I saw you near

But my mind still remembers you
It goes back and forth wondering
What if this wasn’t true
What if this was just a way of smothering

A cruel torture added to my life
A pain not caused by any knife
Something to make me doubt
And wonder what they talk about

Maybe its about you and I
How I kept trying to say goodbye

But then I’d be alone
Like someone without a home
Like an inventor in the stone age
Like a rock star without a stage

I’d be alone
With nothing willing me to atone

However, There are no hidden clues
There’s nothing for the hound to sniff
Realities alarm clock seems to have no snooze
And there is no “What if”

But the torture is far too true
Its something many have grown to know
Its the mourning of someone you once knew
A feeling of absolute woe

We have all experienced the lose of love
Whether its from the heart or above

- E. A. F

We laughed and cried together,
We danced and sang together.
We did everything together,
But I think we’re no longer together.

I think its
Too late now to reminisce,
To second guess,
For you to care,
even if you’d try to dare.

Because you made your choice,
You chose her quietness over my noise.
Her beauty over my personality,
Her clarity over my blurred reality.

You may think now that your mistaken,
But my eyes have been forced open.

You may have had me whipped from beginning to end,
Had me spun like a thread,
And had to pretend,
But I can now see through all you said.

Even if at on stage or another,
We laughed and cried together,
We danced and singed together,
We did everything together,

I think its
Too late now to reminisce.
Too late to second guess.
Too late for you to care
Even if you’d try dare..

- E. A. F

Maybe our emotions are things that control us more than we will ever be able to control them.

Some say that we don't have control over the basis of our feelings, love and fear. They both blind us so easily that we don't even see our true reflection in the mirror. Let alone anyone else's. We see either the best or the worst aspects in retrospect of which one is the blinding tool at hand.

Yet some people tend to stipulate that we have the choice to be scared. That we decide whether we fall in or out of love. That we have control of ourselves, the whole "mind over matter" spiel.

However, in reality, its both theories. Sure, you may have some control here or there, but you are never a hundred percent in charge of what your body does. Its impossible. It is it's own being and doesn't really care if you disagree with it sometimes.

Whether its the awkward sounds it makes in public, like a rumbling stomach noise or the rollercoaster of emotions that kick in after the age of twelve or so. We generally don't have much control over it all. Life has a way of making us think that we can and that its possible, but then we have a way of denying that and never even letting the probability of it come to light.

- E.A.F

Not all youth have the privilege of being young
Life has a way of making us old and high strung
We may not notice it the first few days or years
But all those times life made your eyes rain tears

It made you age a little bit faster than the norm
It created a havoc inside of you that became a storm
And they say that in order for the rainbow appear
You have to sit and wait for the rain to disappear

But the waiting is maybe the hardest thing you'll do
The constant wondering when will it all be through?

- E.A.F

Guess my hearts more fragile than it seems
Cause your the plot to these bad dreams
I keep reaching out for your voice
And wondering if I made the right choice

Since I realised what the true love is
Its when you smile 'cause of a kiss
Its something that over takes everything
Makes you feel like your heart should be a ring

Hoping it goes on and on and on
so that this love never ends
But here I am singing this ****** song
wishing we were still friends

But we'll never be friends
No never be friends again
Our love passed like those trends
But I keep looking back to when

When we first said I love you
Or had our first dance or two
When I first felt that  tinge when we kissed
Or when I didn't doubted the moments missed

Guess my hearts more fragile than it seems
Cause your the main plot to all of these bad dreams
I'm missing the sound of your voice
And I'm figuring out I made the wrong choice

Now I'm echoing to the world screaming set me free
I don't want to feel this anymore
Please take away this heart sore

Cause Since I realised what love is
I know you're the one that I miss
The sound of your heart beat
Made this empty soul feel complete

So now I'm hoping it doesn't go on and on
'cause I'm tired of singing this song
wishing you were still my friend
But I guess everything has to end

- E.A.F

Understanding the stars to your galaxies
Made of past and future complexities
Is the path we took made of possibility
Which ended in us walking separately

Though we're broken and bruised feeling further apart
With moments that'll never silence my heart
I still look for you in the ocean of people
But I know it's your stars that'll only show

Though I won't forget the tune you played
When you tugged at my heartstrings
You brought the music back with memories we made
When you tugged at my heartstrings

Seeing shimmers of blue starting back at you
A reflection I will never unsee
With feilds of gold glowing in the dark
I hope they'll remind you of me

Building moments created by the smallest of things

Feeling alone in a crowded room
Sitting. Waiting for something to happen soon
Something like the glories of life showing their faces
Peaking over the horizon stealing her to new places

Maybe there's a place of pure bliss
A place where she won't have to feel this
Where people aren't forced to pretend
Where nights of tears aren't a days end

Maybe the world will have pity
On a girl who is no longer fun and witty
The only thing keeping her above the tide
Is her ability to hide hide hide

She hides away her tears until nightfall
Scared if she even let a single drop show at all
That her reality will smash to pieces
Her place becoming something of a nuisance

- E.A.F

A million thoughts are running wild
As I stare into the body of an adult
But only see the spirit of a child
That has created feelings never felt

My heart has lost and won the war
But my mind has succumbed to it
My soul has been left feeling sore
While the picture of us was so perfect

How does one bounce back from love
It has become so difficult to comprehend
That this is a believed plan from above
When all I want is a restart and no end.

We both agreed to the terms and conditions
But what if we bend the rules a bit
As you are one of my only obsessions
Why don't we at least attempt it?

- EAF

Though our things did not end right
Left aching to be hugged by the night
Why did this go so wrong so fast
Was it cause we weren't meant to last?

You spoke of a hopeful truth
That this, us, would be your proof
That love still exists in the silence
Where sound shouldn't be violence

I know songs are released everyday
But not one says what I want to say
I'm left hollow caught up in this
You were meant to be true loves kiss

So excuse me if you can dear
I no longer want you to be here
My heart has rebuilt my walls high
So its time for us to say bye bye

- E.A.F

Love is a word I've never understood
It's supposed to be a magical good
Yet its escaped my realm of possibilities
But I've never been blinded by its abilities

But then I saw your face once again
It'd been years since I last saw it when
When I was just a tiny little, lost stray
And you were the guiding shepard to my way  

And now all I can seem to say is 1 4 3 2
1 for I, 4 for love and 3 is for you and 2 is too  
So I'm saying and singing I love you too
So I'm saying and singing I love you too

And now I've grown up from that past image of me
I no longer look at myself and see what use to be
You showed me the light to that dark set
You were the key to the lock on my closet

- E.A.F

Down by the river side
There's a place where we can hide
Its got trees and tranquillity
And its so easy to go daily

See down by the river shore
There's a place to explore
No more than your breath is needed
Its a place where thoughts are secreted

No you must know that down by the river
Is where memories are made of silver
Some are bad and some are golden
But they're things unable to be stolen

So come down to the river with me
And you can adventure the paths to be
The world in all its wonders and shapes
It offers the best of all escapes

- E.A.F

I see you for your light
I see you shining bright
For when I look at you
All I see is something new
For when I look at you, I see it all
From summer to fall

The autumn winds and the summer rays
The youth to these days
The lush meadows
The oach tree’s flowing shadows
And the streams in the cracks of the concrete
Even the radio signal’s greet

For when i look at you
I can’t help but sense a clue
A clue to our happiness
The key to end our sadness

Its as if a rush from outer space,
a extreme car chase
Or adrenaline racing through me
Which all this caused
These echoing heart beats from me

- E. A. F

Each characters story and adventure has,
Not the same plot,
However, the same emotions.
Their laughter fills my air,
Their first kisses make my lips tingle,
Their happiness leaves a constant smile upon my face,

Their wit and courage bring tears to my eyes,
Their fears and ambitions make reality seem plain boring,
Their delay of reactions and disorientation's help to remind me that their only human...
Everything about them seems so real,
That when they concur obstacles beyond their abilities
All I can do is smile knowing that I had the faith to continue reading their tale.

- E.A.F

When I look in the mirror day after day
It's like looking at art you try to say
But I don't see what you see in me
I don't see that apparent hidden beauty

All I see is this mascara running wild
And an old soul trapped in a body of a child
Trying to find its way back to the world
Back to were our lips were forever curled

And yes what we have could be nothing
But imagine if its more than just something
'cause everything could be so eccentric
Consuming my wonder as if it's a trick

- E.A.F

But the thing is,
Is that how ever many times I try this thing called love
I can't seem to grasp it,
I feel like its a flying dove
and I'm just a lone cricket..
Unable to follow it into the sunset.

- E.A.F

I wish my opinions would echo out
Clear as the dj doing a shout out
See my words make the sound of silence
My thoughts are seen as an act of defiance

I sit back in the dark
Scared I'd leave a mark
Scared to make a squeak,
The only time you'd hear my voice is if I were forced to speak

But I'm done with that
Its time I start swinging back
defending what I believe
Not caring bout what you perceive

I'm done with the wall flower persona
Cause I'm about to go super nova
I'm bursting out with this revolution
'cause I'm tired of living this illusion

The make believe image of peace
Acting like crime isn't obese
Pretending that the skies are blue
'cause these lies are far from true

The lies of our country
Like how there is real equality
But as long as we see this as reality
We can not be seen for our humanity

And only When
When more than a few see it as priority
Then we can really live in a true democracy

A place we are able to call home
With honor and dignity
So we don't have to roam

I don't want ppl seeing us as weak and cheap
I want them to follow us like sheep
I want us to be history makers
Not generation breakers

I see other people turning their heads
Wondering if I should be on meds
'cause my ideas are crazy
But if you ask me, they're just lazy

They don't have the energy
to fulfill our destiny
So I'm here to give you a needed nudge
Its time to stop walking and trudge

By any means necessary some seem to say
But their actions tend to stray away
'cause there is no easy way out
Unless your willing it bow out
But I refuse to quit
Who would that benefit?

So instead of sitting back in the dark
instead of being Scared I'd leave a mark
Instead of being Scared to make a squeak,
Instead of you only hearing my voice when I'm forced speak

I'm going to stand in the spotlight
Make sure my mark is a winning fight,
Make sure my squeak is a roar
And that my voice is accounted for

If you feel you want this hidden anarchy
Feel free

But don't expect me to take the back door
Or to play possum on the floor
'cause I'm bursting out with this revolution
Cause I'm tired of living this illusion

- E.A.F

Door ways locked ahead
Windows banged shut instead.
Footsteps echoed along
Voices of mockery sang a song
Shivered from head to toe
Awaited a dreaded foe

Stillness replaced the moment
Emptiness overcome the fulfillment
A laugh of vengeance screeched
Until that limit was reached
Shivered from head to toe
Awaited a dreaded foe

Sat down, not willed to fight on
Knowing that they’ve already won
Last breathes taken away
Fore today was my last day

- E. A. F

I feared the outcome of my feelings
I felt as if I was an abomination
Like I was the sting-theory without its strings
Or the earth with us as its damnation.

I have felt these sensations before
But I have never let my body succumb
I resisted them like the French, but more
Until one day my opposition become weak and numb

I let my heart take control of my thinker
As my body began to wonder "what is that linger?"

- E.A.F

I wish you knew

The tears hidden behind these eyes
The fears deafened with this laugh
The pain numbed with every smile
It has been years since either all have shown

And to tell the truth
It is all because of you
I would like to think I am better off without you
Because you may have lifted my spirits high

Which left me hang up and dry
Everyone thought I would not coupe
Well, I guess they were right

Because these eyes are finally showing their tears
The fears overcame that laugh
And the pain ripped away each smile.
The fake has faded into black

And I only wish you knew

- E.A.F

I've been stuck on words to say
With each and every passing day
They have become out of reach
As I search and search and search

I'm looking for a single sentence
To hold up my own defence
How am I supposed to hate you
When all I can do it love you

You held my heart in your hand
So you squeezed and squeezed and
When it finally gave out to the pain
That's when you tried to love me again

I don't know what to do with my heart
Its in shattered pieces on my sleeve
I don't I dont know what to do with my heart
Waiting for you to leave ..... again

- E.A.F

The tune that sets off my alarm
The notes that carry all of my charm
The shivers that make my heart flutter
And my essence melt like butter

The breeze that seeps through the wind chimes
The echoing instruments that full countless lifetimes
The fingers that move against the threads of the soul
Compositions that leave a person feeling whole

The sighing highs and the weeping lows
The breathless moments to the shows
The fulfillment to the crowds screams
The fuel to my fire, my dreams

The mystery behind the composer’s movement
The magic within this fulfillment
The love I entrust with the soul of the music
This feeling leaving me static

I can feel cloud nine within my reach
Don’t make me sit and preach
About my past experiences
And all the consequences
That have left me on my knees
Begging father please
Be rid of my sins
And treasure my wins

Let me Follow what might be
The future me,
my true shades and shape
For this is my one and only escape

- E. A. F

I see the demons
Surrounding me
Choking me
Just over taking me

these feelings never been set free
Feelings of hate and misery
Like a boom created in chemistry
Tick, tick, boom

Used for the suffocation of society
promised to end its entirety
Carried out like life’s philosophy
Only to end in tragedy

The lives of millions become history
For you all live in idiocy
Unable
Untold
Unbelievable

You all are blinded so easily
Not willed to act freely
You have been misguided so eagerly
Your lack of education appalls me
Why you even sit here is clueless to me

I can see that you disagree
But I can see me in you to a certain degree

I see the hate and misery
I see the boom you and I created too easily
I see the fuel to it, all too clearly
And Its not me

I may say it as I see it
But that’s because
That’s a portion of me,
I’ve looked into that mirror so thoroughly
I’ve lost track of what was me
But I’m back finally
And I’m ready to be free

- E. A. F

A woman sits across from me in the mirror
I pretend she's not there even when I see her
Her heart aches to be heard and seen by me
By all I can do is look away obliviously

I act like she isn't there to echo my truth
The fact that her wrinkled eyes are my youth
I see through her eyes everyday with no remorse
Going about my life not looking back at the source

The things that made me the monster I am now
I don't hate these I hate how I let them endow
They took me over little by little until nothing...
Nothing was left but girl dangled from a string

- E.A.F

It felt like love at first sight
Now, I'd never been one to believe
But this person took away all my doubt
This person became a thieve

The thieve to my soul
The one that made me feel whole
Take into consideration
I've never given someone the chance
Or even allowed them one dance

But I'd dance the night away with you
I'd give you a million and one chances
'cause I think I love the view
Yes its true
'cause as long as you feel this trance
I'd be okay with this single dance

You see
Your body fits mine like a glove
And as long as you feel my love
I'm okay with just one kiss
I'm okay with this feeling of bliss

- E.A.F

Why do years feel like a flash of moments
Some of happiness others of life changing events
I will never learn to understand our minds
It saves our scariest times and our golden finds

We don't have a say in what we want to remember
We are like a house with a limitless chamber
A room filled to the top with waters rising
So much so we feel the need for compromising

To do things to lower the levels so we don't drown
But most of the time our challenges don't sink down
They rise to where the tides rush towards us
Where our breathes are limited like seats on a bus

Seats that we crave to get a ticket for
Because we believe them to be the key to more
Like a life where we don't have to fight to breath
Where our emotions aren't hidden beneath

Beneath the crashing waves of our conscious worlds
Where everything comes together in swirls
So we hope and pray that the tickets will work
Since we can feel our minds becoming more berserk

We need the relief to be truer than true
We need something for our sanity to cling to..

- E.A.F

Shattered glass spread across her face,
Her screams reached out with no such grace.
Her hands touched the clothes she wore,
She hoped she wouldn’t have to feel too much more.

Her screams became numb as she did.
Her hands clung to her arms as she hid,
Her fear keeping her nervous and quiet
And that’s when she felt it.

A nudge from nowhere sent her out into the open in a rush.
Her voice barely audible as she was told to hush.
Her mouth blocked by a hand she could no longer see
Her heart begged for him to hear her plea

She moved his hand away and begged in whimper,
“I see no way to make this simpler.
Just be done with me now,
I’m tired of thinking about when and how.
If you’re going to end me,
Then it let it be.”

Surprised captured her as her body was left
She gasped and savoured her last breath
But seconds passed and she turned and froze
For, she saw a man she alone knows.

- E. A. F

Smiles locked away behind doors
Tip tapping of feet upon the floors
A closed up room for two souls
A love seen only through keyholes

Laughter heard through the walls
As two hearts tumble down the halls
A slight change to the pace of my pulse
And an emotional reaction of convulse

I realize that my heart has speed up
My mind can't seem to shut up
Not sure if you and I are a thing
Or is this just a little something something?

- E.A.F