Elizabeth Midgley-Peters

Elizabeth Midgley-Peters Nov 2015

Shadow

"I swear to god, I'm ******* done."
When will this ever end?
A maze within my mind; I'm gone.
Don't let me break, just bend.

I can't live in my head today,
Can I just have some rest?
Some peace and quiet from the way,
My heart screams in my chest.

Sometimes I just can't help but think,
Am I a hurricane?
With self-destruction on the brink,
Of never-ending rain.

That's pouring now, drowning my mind,
Why can't I just escape?
This constant pain of trying to find,
A way to pull the breaks.

A broken shadow of someone,
But does she still exist?
Don't know if I'm still a person,
Sights aimed at life, but missed.

#depression #anxiety #sad #life #suicide #therapy

Elizabeth Midgley-Peters Nov 2015

The Dark in Me to the Light in You

In broken minds do broken hearts relapse,
A burning match, the fading light goes out.
This shaky world around me might collapse,
Slowly the pillars of my life fall down,
And leave me empty, brittle through the bone.
An indecisive mess, at best, I feel,
That no-one else can help, just me, alone.
And how can I when I don't know what's real?
The life around me sings but still I can't,
Find peace enough within to say a word,
So silent desperation's where I start,
And where I stay, afraid I might get hurt.
There's one thing you should know before I quit;
That you deserve the world, and I'm not it.

had a go at a Shakespearean sonnet this time, still needs editing.

#anxiety

Elizabeth Midgley-Peters Nov 2015

Lungs

A view of you only these eyes can see,
As lungs do fill and fall, to give and bring,
New life to me, as dreams may hear me sing.
But just for now, enamoured hope runs free.
Two destined paths amalgamate as we,
Plunge into bold, foolhardy happenings.
Le grande cascade. Vintgar. A constant spring,
That never stops sprouting abundantly.

But hurried mornings twist and bend my heart,
To expedite the time I must derail
My consciousness and fall back to the start,
To dreams of distance lost so I can't fail.
To find my thrill, admiring breath, like art;
The rise and fall of life and it's details.

My first sonnet (Petrarchan) so hopefully the form is on point :)

#love #heartbreak #sleep #time #breath #relationship #new #distance #close #lungs

Elizabeth Midgley-Peters Oct 2015

Untitled

Hazy mornings reflect on my mind,
With you right there at the forefront.
A dancing blur of light and art;
My pencil your informant.

And though it seems a radiant tranquility,
Reality can **** a concept.
As when my eyes flutter open and aren't met with yours,
As far as I go, well, there's nothing left.

Pressure on a fracture that splits into a void,
Opening up within me.
This twisted beauty spilling out,
We can't go back now, can we?

What becomes of me in this frosty isolation,
I guess we'll never know.
With feelings that don't equate to words,
I couldn't portray the sorrow.

So I'll stay in my hazy mornings,
And try to build a home, where
There's all the beauty, light and art,
And reality can't find me there.

one of my module assignments is to write a poem in 'ballad form' so here is my first attempt. any advise or criticism is appreciated!

Elizabeth Midgley-Peters May 2015

waves

There's a new kind of silence in my mind
That sits as softly as a sunrise
That familiar drift, feeling your breath
Fall against my neck
As though you're the cool breeze in summer; and I'm the forest you are swaying;
Strong but somehow more beautiful with every second of your presence.

Taking me back to the first time our hands and bones intertwined
A tidal wave of perfection falling
Over my mind.
Looking at you, I don't merely see a person
But endless opportunity to flow and fall wherever I please,
Knowing I have you by my side,
To make me that little bit more myself
Than I ever have been.

Elizabeth Midgley-Peters Mar 2015

Untitled #4

Here we go again,
A day trip in our vibrant little bubble
With hearts so light I've forgotten what the dark is,
Finding sanity within our fleeting eternity,
And solace within the depths of
Each-others cloudy minds.
The bewildering clarity
Of a moment shared, lost
But never forgotten.
In our perfectly crazy infinity;
The only place I feel truly alive
With the exhilaration of adventure
Pumping through my veins
Almost as quickly as this drug they call 'love'
That consumes and lifts us out of this world,
But I don't mind.
I'd let everything fade to nothing
Just to float away with you
In our vibrant little bubble,
One more time.

Elizabeth Midgley-Peters Feb 2015

Briefly Yours

Goodbye, my friend
Or hello, so it seems
To this unfamiliar take on you.
It's frustratingly new

To me, it seems strange but
Sometimes when I can't sleep
You pop into my head
Quickly replaced with another
But though I would like to,
I can't deny that you are there.

And weirdly, tonight
I can't see straight,
But I can see you.
And I can see that you see me, too.
Maybe we can just forget- ****
I know that's crazy
But that's what you turn me into.

It is rather unfair of you
To leave me all tangled up
Like this; a mess of what ifs
And mixed up thoughts.
But I guess you'll make
A happy little mess
Wherever you go.
(Or so I hope)

So goodbye,
Really I just wanted to say
That even if you never know,
I guess I've briefly been yours,
In a strange sort of way.