I want to crack every bone in my body, and turn my screams into twigs under your feet.
I feel my lungs breaking,
And my heart aching.
I need a sense of purpose.
Something to tell me that its all worth it.

Ascend me to the heavens
And let my soul vanish.
Tell god about my flaws,
I don't care if its tarnished.
Hollow out my thoughts,
Allow my eyes to become blackened.

I don't doubt your love,
But your resemblance is uncanny.
To the sadness in my veins
And the bleak future that I carry.
The bruises on my shoulders have been too much to take,
But the numbness never ceases to await.
Allow me to fall apart.
Take my life and give it to another worth the breath.
Destroy my view of the world,
And don't accept another like it.
My last words will be, 'I didn't fight it'.

Ascend me to the heavens
And let my soul vanish.
Tell god about my flaws,
I don't care if its tarnished.
Hollow out my thoughts,
Allow my eyes to become

darkened.

will you only have eyes for me?
i don't mean eyes as in looking at other storms
i meant eyes as in am i the only
one that you give that gaze to?

deep brown pools of pain.
pain that makes me
want to hold you and not let go.
pain that makes me
want to kiss you a thousand times and more.

eyes that melt me
and i let myself fall into them
but then feels cold whenever i stayed too long.

I'm easy-
I'm as predictable as a bud
about to bloom before
the summer sun strikes her
heavy blow and smokes
the flowers with a

deep inhale, a canon.

When I come up and
I go down
so quickly, I know that
I'm easy
and I know that I
must be a fool

a coward,
conversed in the pull back
the push ahead of
a tide I'm
cultivated in
conceding when
my toes can't touch the
ground and I'm feeling
my familiar fear

I
know
   that
      I'm
         a
      fool

and I'm telling you that
                              there's a war,

there are wars,
there are THESE wars:

where I'm the soldier
I'm the commander,
I'm the nurse,
and I'm the civilian,
the gun and
the sword:

I lie like a flower
in the trenches of
civil war.