You love me.
Whats wrong with you?
You say it every time you hug me.
Why cant i say it ?
I'm afraid of it.
Why am afraid?
cause it could destroy me
if i were to obtain it.
Do I even contain it?
I don't believe I do
because if I were to
I'd love myself, and
you.
-*love

I will disappear in fog and night
Subdued in sleep and surprise
Blinding lights
Overwhelming might
They will spirit me away
And charge me with my crimes
They will call me many names
And some I might be
But none will be  my own
I will be a traitor or subversive
Or worse
Because I refuse to swear allegiance
To the police state
And fealty to the men
Clad in black
I will not submit
But they don't know
That I stole into the great hall of Valhalla
And took with me
One of their mighty spears
Usurped their valor
And took it back with me
Now they will carry me on my shield
Though my burning bier
Be but a lonely cell
And tonight I will dine
In the great hall of Valhalla
That place that still lives on
In the mind of men

Suddenly,
all the love songs
on the radio
were about him
and then
just as suddenly,
the radio
stopped playing
all those songs
replaced them
with heartbroken ballads
and yet,
they were still about him
he always had to be the center of attention

I think I might
secretly love attention
But have no idea
how to accept it

The night's cold wind
blows gently across my face
carefully pushing my hair into vision
With an assertive finger
I put it back in place
out of the way

and question
what I did
to deserve this

Torn flesh
chest shredded
Your knife has found its mark
and brutally defiled
my broken heart

I'm sorry
I can't be
I'm not what you wanted
I can't be that
I'm not willing to destroy myself any more
I will never be him

A tender kiss
a blade in my back
Whispering confessions
as the sharpened nails retract
Temporary satisfaction
allows our misery distract

It wasn't meant to be this way
I don't know what to do
It was meant to be perfect
I cried with soaked remorse
It was meant to be worth the sacrifice
I knew it wasn't

These expectations
Our hopes were just lies
We gave up living
For our broken dream
Lost our freedom
In the hopes to be free
So easily did we fall
to find something true
I faintly remember
a time
when
i loved you

A hooded figure
walks the night
Walking in shadows
keeping out of sight

The road he travels
walked on by all
Heartbreak and tragedy
not hearing mercy's call

The darkness he walks in
hides but his face
Not the tears or thoughts
or the memories he tries to erase

Blankets of shadow
cover arms crying with the mark
But everything is okay
as long as he remains in the dark