There she  lies
Wide awake in this cellar of her  nightmares;
A prison army camp
Stamps it's boots across her
Charcoal heart;
It's remnants will be spread across
Many eras. Smudged mascara
And a sallow face
She will replace you
Because she was trained to.

Cem 420a 11015

I am spreading myself out across the splintering voids of the crackling civilization
One borrowed hair tie,
T shirt
Bobby pin
At a time.
I am the little presents and treasures
You keep for no reason
And you are my mix CDs.
You are the summer when i
Was most like the trees- swaying and bending in the vaporizing heat
Of an august afternoon.
I am ashes scattered to the wind
Begging to begin again
With an old friend.

Cem 427a 11015

I used to love you more than love
I used to hate love more than hate
You taught me that love wasn’t real
You taught me not to tolerate

Not nearly long enough ago
When I was proud of my mistakes
I said all of my hate filled songs
Were made thanks to my girl’s name sake

I feel sorry to have blamed her
For what I did because of you
I don’t feel hatred, I feel pity
What made you do the things you do?

I used to wish that I was you
But that was before I was me
Now it’s not something I would wish
On even my worst enemy

I used to think you were a God
But now I’ve opened up my eyes
You are the devil, nothing more
In some kind of greasy disguise

I must admit I was saddened
To learn you died without a friend
But the frightening thing about it
Is I could have reached the same end

But I must thank you for one thing
Though thanking you seems very strange
You made me the worst I could be
And that showed me I had to change

If not for you, all of this love
Would still be just out of my reach
And I have learned an awful lot
By ignoring the things you teach

I’ve stopped listening to your music
It always leaves me feeling down
But even though you’re the devil
I’m awfully glad you came around

I wish you could have changed like me
Instead you drowned in your own hate
But I guess I’m just very lucky
And I have got a friend in fate

The world around me hurt
Darkened by despair
My mind was full of dirt
So I didn’t care

The dirt was piled high
Covering my eyes
I was blind
I was blind

But now that my past self lies in his grave
The new me comes out of the womb
Now that what I was is dead
I can bloom

The world was full of pain
I cared about mine
My life was full of rain
Only in my mind

The rain started a flood
Mattered more than blood
I was sick
I was sick

But now that my past self lies in his grave
Trapped safely locked away his tomb
Now that what I was is dead
I can bloom

My life was going great
I could have had fun
If not for all my hate
Burning like the sun

Burning so hard and bright
Blocking what was right
I was mad
I was mad

But now that my past self lies in his grave
The new me comes out of the womb
Now that what I was is dead
I can bloom

I can bloom

Nobody loves me
Everyone lies
Not long ago
That was the world in my eyes

Love is suspicious
Hate is for real
They’re all the reason
For the pain that I feel
They are all guilty
Until they die
Not long ago
That was the world in my eyes

I am a genius
You are all fools
You are not human
So you can’t say I’m cruel
I am the victim
How can you cry?
Not long ago
That was the world in my eyes
In my eyes

Love is true power
Nothing’s as strong
I look at my past
How could I be so wrong?
Hatred was my life
My hate has died
Now I can see
Now that’s the world in my eyes

Sometimes you must climb
Very far to see how far you’ve fallen
Don’t scream for your dreams
If you close your mouth, you’ll hear them callin’

Mankind in my mind
Is a loving thing with few exceptions
Each face is a place
Good or evil it’s just your perception

There is no rock worth living under
For the whole world is full of wonder
For those who want to live a life of gold
Time may pass by, we may be aging
This may all be a play we’re staging
We may turn gray, but we’ll never grow old

That love from above
May be real or not, but don’t **** for it
Don’t fight for the light
If you **** for love, then you abhor it

There is no rock worth living under
For the whole world is full of wonder
For those who want to live a life of gold
Time may pass by, we may be aging
This may all be a play we’re staging
We may turn gray, but we’ll never grow old

stop planting flowers
in the yards of people who
aren't willing to
water them.