Jan 2015
The world around me hurt
Darkened by despair
My mind was full of dirt
So I didn’t care
The dirt was piled high
Covering my eyes
I was blind
I was blind
But now that my past self lies in his grave
The new me comes out of the womb
Now that what I was is dead
I can bloom
The world was full of pain
I cared about mine
My life was full of rain
Only in my mind
The rain started a flood
Mattered more than blood
I was sick
I was sick
But now that my past self lies in his grave
Trapped safely locked away his tomb
Now that what I was is dead
I can bloom
My life was going great
I could have had fun
If not for all my hate
Burning like the sun
Burning so hard and bright
Blocking what was right
I was mad
I was mad
But now that my past self lies in his grave
The new me comes out of the womb
Now that what I was is dead
I can bloom
I can bloom
Darkened by despair
My mind was full of dirt
So I didn’t care
The dirt was piled high
Covering my eyes
I was blind
I was blind
But now that my past self lies in his grave
The new me comes out of the womb
Now that what I was is dead
I can bloom
The world was full of pain
I cared about mine
My life was full of rain
Only in my mind
The rain started a flood
Mattered more than blood
I was sick
I was sick
But now that my past self lies in his grave
Trapped safely locked away his tomb
Now that what I was is dead
I can bloom
My life was going great
I could have had fun
If not for all my hate
Burning like the sun
Burning so hard and bright
Blocking what was right
I was mad
I was mad
But now that my past self lies in his grave
The new me comes out of the womb
Now that what I was is dead
I can bloom
I can bloom
This album is called Matt in the Hat. Why? Well, before I called myself Maddie, I was Matt, and I wore a hat with a daffodil in it as a reminder that I was not the bad person that I used to be. This song started off as a silly idea, with the flower representing my new self blooming, and the bad stuff being represented by what makes a flower grow, to show that they both hindered me and allowed me to transform. I thought it would be a stupid little song, but what I ended up with I like a lot.
