Is a dream I can’t have.

I only have 5 minutes
To spare this poetry
Here it goes:

5.
I do not wish to be seen
Said the old man in me
So leave me alone
Cause I don't want to be

4.
For I've been running away
This is what I hate
And I envy everyone else
Who are not in the same fate.

3.
What have I become?
Where will I go?
The questions are left unanswered
And I've searched high and low.

2.
To be strong once more
In my world full of doubt
To be strong while I lose
In my latest bout.

1.
I wish I had more time
Just like before
I only have 5 minutes
And I wish I had more.

Do you ever,
just sit with your head in your hands
wiping your lonely tears
remembering...

"dont think about it"
"dont talk about it"

think about it.
talk about it.

cry and scream about it if you have to. letting it out doesn't guarantee that you'll be free from the pain but holding it in guarantees you'll be sinking until you give yourself a chance to let everything out.

to not think and talk about it is ignoring the reality of it.

You are the sun
Good news: I'm not the moon
Bad news: I'm the planet Pluto
And no matter how many times
I rotate around you,
I will always be the least
of your priority

since i’ve loved you
i’ve only
loved
you