Saddness ***** my voice out
Guilt steals my air
Tragedy poisens my tears
Because of Crying I no longer care

I drift slowly
     swiftly
          quickly
back back back
dancing and laughing and a cone on my head
        I remember those beginning days
   I see your round face, glowing eyes
and feel the pedestal lifting higher and higher, too high for a human girl
Love literally embraced every single person near
     A love so strong it seemed impossible
*"MOMMY" ....."MOMMY"
Oh yea, reality...reality...
            it's so many years later
pour the milk, run a bath,
                 look around...you aren't here...
       miss you....miss your hands...
       miss your eyes looking at me like there is nothing i can do wrong...
But I missed you and your eyes and your hands for so long
while you were still standing right here
... and now
it's the blue eyes and brown eyes that i look at, no more dark green eyes
and there's a different kind of love ...
have to let that fantasy life go...it hasn't been here for years

The sun beating down on my face,
The gentle, warm breeze.
The smell of green plant life,
the stench of fresh mulch.
The cooling drizzle of summer rain,
the essence of wet concrete.

This is what I missed.