hold me when the river runs
don't let go.
watch it wind,
see me sink.

hold me when the river runs
to wherever it can't wait to be
rushing, roaring, rigid flowing
sudden stops -- please,
give me warnings

hold me when it all floats up,
when the bones pierce through,
when the gold is birthed,
when my palms fail to release,
when they fail to keep.

hold me when the river runs
don't.
let go.
I'll learn to follow echoes.

When I first heard of you being with her,
I didn't bother myself so much.
I didn't think much about it because
I knew it was never going to be me.
I told myself, "You don't have the right
to get hurt because there was never anything
between you."

Five months after that news, we were both in a party
hosted by a common friend and the universe, with
all its funny jokes, made it happen so that
I was sitting right in front of you,
with her next to you.
Looking at you both, it hurt me so much.
I told myself, "I'm lying to myself because
I knew there was something between us
before there was a him and her."

I couldn't look you in the eyes.
It was the saddest party I ever went to.

torn between seeing the innocents indiscriminately suffer and die
and the tyrant have a free hand
Mankind crawls on its belly, and reaches for the Stars

My Grandson is now ten and
growing like the proverbial ****,
but still young and sweet enough
to yet sit upon my knee,
to share moments of joy
and reflection, or for me
to tell him a story.

He still giggles when I tickle him,
and thankfully he's not too old to
give and receive hugs and kisses.
Best of all he never fails to tell me he
loves me whenever he arrives or leaves.

How would I draw me?
In pencil on time stained paper?
On the canvas of future so dreamy?
Or on a mirror with brushstrokes much braver?
Certainly not in cyberspace even thinner
Where there's everything but real stars that glimmer
Cause to me, you see, fellow maverick,
All that is pure we can't draw and wear like a fabric
It's lived breathed and loved
It's etched into your senses and leaves you for dead
For you to rise again like the morning sun
With a painting to show to your darling young ones,
Without form, style and genre,
So take the water and gulp then go sculpt nothing
And leave to go discover in the romance of mystery.

You were always there for me
You may not have gotten to raise me
But i was always...
Your little girl
Im so sorry...
I was scared
I was angry
She was hurting me but i was
Ashamed
I didnt want you to see
So i said cruel things to you
I pushed you away
Because no matter what
You always saw through my facade
And the instant you looked
Me in the eyes
You knew...
But i didnt want you to know then
Because i didnt want to know

I escaped from her and
I reached out to you again
I needed you
I was so scared
Hurt
Angry
And you reached right back
Not with anger
But with all the love in the world
You had every right to hate me
But you gave me all your patience
All your love

You looked at me and told me
Baby, all i want is for you to be happy
Thats all ive ever wanted
Years of anger and pain
Melted away
I have to thank you
For your forgiveness
For your patience
And thank you for making me realize
Its never too late for a relationship ♡