I sit here in delusions
surrounded by burnt fuses,
and mindless conclusions.
I am taken back and wondering
through this trauma world.
I can't see through
my black and blue eyes,
I can only feel the blood
and the tears dripping down
my weathered face
Wrapping up the physical
and emotional wounds
that embrace my soul,
they do not heal,
They only keep me safe.
I live inside this trauma world
all by myself, alone.
Limping through these
struggles of life,
I tripped over those moments
I am trying to forget.
I relive those events
over and over again.
So make them go away.
I will continue to sit here
with these delusions,
mindless in my own trauma world
I start to disengage.
But when do I pull the fuse?