Come with me into the woods
Let's jump on leaves
unleash our catapults of feathers
Swing on vines and climb on tree tops
run around nature's maze
and *live our youth

I've gotten a shot. Today not in my mouth, not in my arm, not in my leg. My heart has been punctured. I have been broken. I'm a girl who's been broken and glued. Broken and glued. Once again shattered, annihilated on the ground. Just to plaster herself up once again and forget. I can't forget. How can you forget a burning that burns so deep inside of your soul, nothing can extinguish that. A fight that won't give up no matter how bad you want to.... It won't seize. The moon shining at night will never stop, my love for you is astronomy. Celestial you's fill my eyes. That's all I've ever wanted

A blue guitar, twelve pieces of silver-
ware, some feldspar, an essay on The Art
of War, two pine bookshelves, fifty-four books
about the past, a stone axe that must have
belonged to the last of the Mohicans, fifty more
books about bones, stones and famous pomes,
a sliver of glass from a mirror that shattered
the last six years like they didn't matter
plus one to go, a shitload of old liquor bottles,
a fossil of an inner earbone from a killer whale,
a spear-point older than 12,000 years+plus,
a tooth from a shark as big as a ****** bus,
dust marks from missing pictures of us.

Would you be THE one
My star, so bright, so far
Up high, above the sky,
Just shining through the dark
For me to see at night?

Would you be the one,
The guide I yearned to have
The one that lights the path
towards Jesus Christ?

Jan 2016.

You cannot tell me
That what I feel is purely..
in my head

Not whenever my heart pounds
Not whenever my hands shake
not whenever my chest aches

You cannot tell me
That what I feel is..
ridiculous

Because I know that this is real
Both to my brain
*and to my body

People say "to live we have to experience things"
But the thing is, you were my experience and you turned into my life
What you felt, I felt
What you saw, I saw
Now your gone I should be feeling heartbreak; I feel nothing
When you left, you took my life with you
I'm still alive , but now I'm not living

******* IT
I just keep moving
Trying my best to keep my head up
Seems like the world is only keeping me down
Seems like
The more that I try
The more happiness eludes me
Like I'm pushing as hard as its pulling away
Seems like
A kick in the teeth
Every time I try to smile
Seems like a cavity
When I never ate the candy

Seems to me
That I believe in a higher power
That really hates me
A fatalistic point of view
Seems to be
Its bitter pain and disappointment
Brittle skin and fragile mind
And fire

Luckily
This is only the way it seems
Its just a phase
I'm going through

Every path laid,
Is another path made,
A different pathway,
To part ways.

Everything is wrong and i dont know how to fix it.
Monday rolls through my head like one of those memories
that you think could be a dream, but you aren't sure.
Its like this weird numbness, where i'll get flashes of happy
but the sad still dominates.