My God: have I forsaken you?
I'm trapped inside my schemes
I searched too long for some place new
[To give up on my dreams]
I see the mirror mocking me
My heart is filled with snakes
I feel the Devil stalking me
He tells me my mistakes
I squander life so foolishly
With graceless malcontent
When solace runs so rapidly:
My ego won't repent
I live within obscurity
The world is cruelly trite
Please, God: relieve my apathy
I'm weary of my spite...
This is a piece about wrestling with God, especially through addiction.