THE PAST

The past      etched in time's memory

engraved in my mind-scape  
        
faces    places

colours    sounds     smells   moments

undercurrents of emotions  

of feelings   of images

of glimpses of joy   of sorrow  

of laughter    of  tears  

of love   of tenderness

of   resolutions    of doubts  

of regrets   of remorse  of loneliness

of what had been    or could have been

everything had evaporated like dreams

but all seems so dim  now  

neural debris    
weakening dendrites  

the past is but shadows

    an illusion  

  a shadow-play    

the essence was then --  

most memories have vanished or  faded at the present hour

the past   what are its uses    

what are its abuses

time measures all  

swallows   all  

it takes no sides  

neither a friend or foe

the past     I was    

the present   I am  

the future   I don't know

5th May 2014

Baby, don't worry
about my sore
Not to worry, darling
Just love me some more!

You no need to fix my broken heart
Just try to feel my pain in your heart
Oh, baby, I'm coming to you
Please, don't close your door!

I'm not asking for the moon
I'm not looking for the rain
Darling, just look at my eyes
and make me smile again!

Stop walking away from me
and listen to me, oh babe!
Lemme see your face one more last time
if you don't love me anymore!

She looked at him like he was the sun,
In that she never looked at him,
Except out of frustration.

She complained when he was gone,
But she never looked.

On days he was stronger, she hid from him
On days he was muted, she complained.

She never looked at him until he was leaving,
And in the beauty of the sunset she wondered how,
She'd never seen him before

It is death
that I want

Not the warmth
she brought  

Not orchids
next to my bed

Not another
burning sunset

Not the joyful
songs of Icarus

It is but death
I yearn for

clean white teeth palm oil rubbed
and the upright ape-man smiles
a white smile to his upright ape-woman
as the forest diminishes into palm oil
crop of gold and death to all
Man came down from the trees
and returned with a chainsaw-
lubricated with oil fired with gasoline.