don't say it is my fault this happened
don't say i am to blame
don't call me a coward
don't cry at my grave
don't say it was easy
Don't say you ever cared
don't shed a tear for me
don't remember to remember me
don't bring me flowers
don't tell people of my tales
don't let my legacy live on
don't say i was Loved
don't ever say those words again
don't ever think of me
don't say we had happy memories
don't say you've seen me smile
don't pretend you knew me

This was the choice I made
it is mine alone to carry
It's a lot lighter than you would think
After all the blood I have just lost.

As the crowd gathers
for their final goodbyes
Wondering what they could have changed
Wondering what they should have done differently
thinking to themselves
Why did he think there was no one to turn to?
Why did he think he had no one?
Why did he think he had to go through it all alone?
but
Ask yourself where were you?
Where were you on those lonely nights?
How I cried at night waiting for someone to ask me if I'm okay,
To ask me if I needed to talk,
Just a shoulder to cry on.
Lay me to bed with a promise that you will never let go
But you never came, did you...
You never asked those questions
And left me to deal with it

So as the rain starts to drop
And the sky turns grey
Shed a single tear in my Honour,
And no more!
because you only deserve the one,
So close the casket, put me in the ground
let me sink into the blackness
Crying into eternity
For forevermore

You want to spend every day with me
Except for the two days that actually matter
i wish you would wonder where I've been
asked me if I'm okay
asked me if I'm doing alright
because someday you'll be too late
You'll wonder why I did it
You'll call me selfish for taking the scenic route
You'll call me selfish for leaving you alone
But what you've yet to realize
That's what you've done my whole life
That's how you treated me all day long
When all I ever did was Love you
unconditionally...
so sorry I won't be there anymore
but just know it's for the better
because at least now
someone cares for where I've been
someone hits me up on the weekend
At least they cared enough to ask
And whoever said to hide your demons was lying
Because they're the only ones who never let me go through it alone
So sorry not really sorry
And till we never meet again
But that's just my thoughts
manifesting slowly

Watch as my tears seep through the cracks
watering the flowers you left at my tombstone
Watch as I descend into an eternity of being alone
That somehow doesn't feel that bad
Considering I spent my whole life getting well acquainted with
Her
She was the only one who never left me,
so watch as her arms wrap around my body,
and hug me for forever more,
and watch how those flowers blossom,
like I was never able to.
At least in death I was able to accomplish
More than I ever did in life
So please hold on to me
And never let go
Her cold shoulder never before so warm
So I shed my final tear
As I draw into her cold embrace
Watch how the petals fall
And the flowers finally die
I wish you the best with my final goodbye

I lay in bed most nights
Hoping
you would hit up my phone and wonder
where I've been
and what I've been up to
But I know you never will
I know you don't really care
or at least that's what my overthinking alter ego tells me everyday
Not the way I do at the very least
Only message when I'm wanted
Taking my help for granted
Only message when you want something
Because what I want means nothing
Right
?
I've always been in your corner
Ready to assist
But when I'm in the ring
I box without a shadow
Memories are the only thing I've got going for me
My only link to reality
My only link to what we once were
Without them I wouldnt make it through most days
And I wish I could say the same for you
But I know you don't feel the same
So I get ready to drift away
The lonely dreamer
Who never really dreams