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ClockworkGrenade Nov 2015
Every person has a vile enemy to overcome,
It may be a person, or even a book to some.
But for myself, alas, it is but a feeling,
Of the tearing of one's heart as well as its' resealing.

I strive to love, yet not to yield,
I dive in headstrong, but not without a shield.
A sword in my hand, pointed to thee,
But unknowingly, an arrow flies towards me.

It hits its' mark, strong and true,
And I fall, weakened, and clouds wave as I pass through.
Blinded now, I reach for thy hand,
A chuckle is heard, and my fist closes around sand.

Sly is the tactic thou hast used to elude me once more,
But I, a damsel, remained oblivious as the seams of my heart were torn.
I continue to fall, but then I reached the end,
And I could only wish that I had resumed falling again.

The bottom had been sharp, and it pierced me through,
My eyes, my chest... and oh, the screams it had ensued!
Never before had I experienced such agony,
I suppose then, that this is why love was- no, is a tragedy.

As my eyelids flutter close, tears escaped them one last time,
I lay impaled, love's greatest tragedy's prime.
I had known that this was the end of my conquest of love,
And I wished that no one would take this path for it was severely undeserved.
Love hurts, but the failure of overcoming it hurts a little more.
ClockworkGrenade Sep 2014
Life
So beautiful
So perfect
The painful times come and go
But for now, it is perfect

Pristine and joyful are my days
Now I worry not
For my pain has been taken away
ClockworkGrenade Aug 2014
"I'm sorry"

You repeat this phrase
Over and over again
Any time, any day
Till there's nothing left to gain

"I'm sorry"

You say this
As you twirl the knife in your hand
Is there something amiss?
Or are you doing it because you can?

"I'm sorry"

You whisper in my ear
And bring the weapon down
I scream, my eyes filled with fear
But you remain silent, without a sound

Because you're already gone.

I'd give anything to hear you say I'm sorry again
Even my heart, so yours can once more begin
It's beating sound, calming to the ears
But no more, as my face stream with tears
Say I'm sorry again once last time and I promise you I'll be a better person
I'll change just to hear those words speak from your mouth again
Just say it
Please
#cg
ClockworkGrenade Aug 2014
They say that when you close your eyes
You envision the most delightful of things
Like roses in the park, or even your wishes and dreams
No one said that you would see the most painful of things

When I close my eyes, I see nothing but darkness
I see deaths and drugs, tasting blood on my tongue
My friends are with me, but it is them that's suffering
They are the ones that die, that are narcotic and steal

Why can't it be me that does these things?
To watch and not be able to help, it kills me even when conscious
I awaken to the coppery taste still on my mouth, unable to wash it away
So think again when you hear people say

*Dreams are wonderful and I would love to relive them again
Dreams are not always good, and when they're not, you see a little bit of reality in it.
ClockworkGrenade Jun 2014
The "ifs" are all racing across my mind
It's all I can see, I'm walking 'round blind
I can only wish that I went back to then
To the past, and to where it had all began.

I remember

I remember having my teacher punish me every day
But it didn't matter, we would all be there silently going "heyy"
We'd do everything together, distance big or small
We'd always beg our parents to let us go out to the mall

Relaxing, having fun, all seems so far away
Now that reality's sunk in, all our joy is now delayed
Who knows for how long, now that we've stopped talking
I never expected it to end this way, it is beyond shocking

I try to move on, to try and make new friends
But then after a week or so, I was met with all dead ends
No one would talk to me, the way you guys did
So I sought you out, but of course, God forbid

Happiness is now a dream that's never meant to come true
I don't even have enough friends for a table of two
One would be empty, filled with thorns and vines
With no one willing to risk treading on this field with mines

I may always seem open, but I hide my feelings deep
Because I never want to be again, the one and only black sheep
The differences become wide, people start drifting again
But friends aren't the only things of which that I abstain

It's not the food I miss, just the sharing of it
We switched all the time, emptying the containers bit by bit
Laughing and talking with our mouth wide open with food
But it didn't matter, all that did was that our lives were good

I also miss, the bonds that we shared
So close, with our weird antics that people had often stared
I remember the crazy stunts we once did
Holding hands laughing, gigling, annoying that one kid

Now I'm all lost I don't know where to go
With no goal in mind, not without the flow
I've got no reason, to keep going on this way
"So maybe it'll finally end," I think, as I start a new day
ClockworkGrenade Jun 2014
Back then, everything seemed simple
Always smiling, with that little dimple
Never were we sad, but rather the other
Being as close as sisters and brothers

Then everything changed, when I was pulled away
Forced to change, to leave, to go astray
I wanted to be with you guys, entering our future together
But my parents thought that this change of schools would be for the better

At first, we continued chatting nonstop
Our bonds were still going strong without a stop
But then suddenly, we were too busy to talk
And thus our friendship ended, quite much as a shock

I only wish that one day
We would again be together always
I will go to see you guys one day, soon
I swear this on the light of the moon

10 years later

I walk up to the dorm where I knew you guys were staying
And although one would not know it, I was silently praying
I open the door, to find no one in sight
But what really scared me, was that the place was dark as night

Dusty, as if no one had been there for years
I walk around warily, all eyes and ears
I saw a picture, of all of us from back then
Next to it was a scribble, with a paper and a pen

It had an address, so I assumed they had shifted
I walked my way there, but the place was restricted
To dark to see what the name of it said
So I thought all was good and would come back the next day instead

I came back, only to be stopped at a halt
My eyes became wet with tears that tasted like salt
I walked inside the compound, slowly until I found it
Their names written on tombstones, and thus, I fell, deep into a pit.
This poem, was written in hope that each and every one of us would appreciate our friends more, because from personal experience, time is limited, and so I say this: Appreciate, love and always take care of your friends, because you never know when they have to go.
#cg
ClockworkGrenade Jun 2014
In the world, conflicts are strong
In this world, there's so much that's wrong
In our world, no one is giving
And in my world, nothing is living

My world is plain,
A simple black and white
All is monotonous with disdain
And then you came into my sight

My world burst with life
Rainbows and no strife
All my wishes were coming true
All of this because of you

We journeyed together
Continuing with our lives
Unaware of what awaited us
On the other side

The moonlight shone bright
And though the stars were dim
I could see what reality did to you
In that pool of red you laid in

Your hands were cold
Clutched to the blade that pierced our souls
For you were leaving this world of colour
Bringing it back into darkness but now with three colours

Black

The colour of my sorrow
My soul could no longer stay pure
There's nothing left to live for
Because I had lost my light

It is a chore
A curse, a suffering
I want to end it all with the very same blade
But I know you would want me to stay strong

White

When I go back in time
Thinking about summertime
When we danced with joy and laughter in our eyes
As our lips clash, knowing that you're there will suffice

For meeting you in dreams
Whenever I manage to escape from reality
I run to you, arms wide open
But my arms close into empty space

Red

Like all the light,
There are also darkness
Like the nights that I cry in my sleep
Awaking to the smell and feel of blood

My arms are sticky and my eyes are red
Bloodshot, exhausted and depressed all over again
Every day, I go through this grief
Now I hold my weapon, trembling beyond belief

I'm sorry for disobeying your final wish
That I wouldn't take my own life
But now listen to my death wish
There is no longer any point in life

Because with your soul leaving this godforsaken world
You took my heart and my spirit
Along with my world.
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