she walks across my mind
she bends around my spine
a queen that moves each tide
she wins battles of will
she is a strong but beautiful still
and I promise that you ****
cause,who is she but only the soldier in me

Is my life one worth making
I know it's not just me feeling this ground shaking.
I try to walk but can't move sit but stand still
I have gotta love this dynamic will
But what will happen now
No more parle-ing or functioning
I can see and feel it and its the time that's changing
Just let me love feel and breath with out
eyes watching I just want to care
and let 'em know I believe in 'em
I know I meant to have your back
But who has mine when things are holding me back

Watching you is drinking a cup full of giggles and trying to savor every last drop.
Hearing the worst news ever and then getting a hug from you would make the world stop.
I swear you're the Sunday mornings after church and you're an early fall night at the fair
I adore your almond eyes, the golden brown tone of  your skin and your cute curly hair
God gave me more the just a gift
He gave me a new life
and I'm gonna love her.

Drunk and poured my heart out next thing you know I was pouring my guts out in a trash can. You got me vulnerable holding my hair getting me some ibuprofen . Look at you trying to look out. I already looked out I see the cards in your hand. Carelessly I played into your plan.

One more condescending look .......

When your young they tell you a child is a crutch
Believe me hon before I had her I was crushed

and I will go off cause ......

Gods kinda funny right when you feel the weight of the world
God will come back right  around and give you a baby girl.

I will shock you

I was the paper pinned between the rock and the hard place
no more round and round cause she staring me in my face

because I will be the best young mother

Don't get me wrong  teen pregnancy is the never a good thing
It is just some times its the best thing.

So go ahead judge me
For a gift God let me have

You can call me obsolete
I'm always prepared for a defeat
Life wont ever be complete


But I will keep on
For no apparent reason
Born at rock bottom
and
       there you will no my name.

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