Written words of thoughts redacted
about the glimmer of light refracted
in you.

I see the sun in your eyes
Burning, warm, and full of life
with the faintest hint of an eclipse,
a wonder for all to behold,
your eyes look to another.

And yet,
and yet I still look into the sun,
not caring that it blinds me,
for all I want to see...
is you.

This cancerous crush consumes me.
Like a cigarette addict,
I just can't get enough.
It kills me, but I don't care.

I want you to drink me in,
but I'm a taste you haven't acquired.
I want to be your muse,
but I leave you feeling
less than inspired.

I am a violin, and you, a virtuoso
that can play my notes perfectly.
But, you've composed your ballad
for the viola.

And I sit here alone, playing a requiem,
mourning the loss of a love
that will never be.

You're the only one who can make me smile
Without that smile immediately fading away
You're the only one who can make me laugh and cry
A million times each and every day.

You're the only one I've ever loved
Before, I hardly believed that love was real
You're the only one who can take my breath away
The only one who can truly make me feel

You're the only one I can't get over
I don't know why it's so **** hard
You're not the only one who's ever hurt me
But you're the only one who left me scarred.

I used to be independent
I used to be sure
But now I am lost,
Confused and insecure
I used to believe
That I always knew best
But then you came along
And put my will to the test
I used to have courage
I used to be strong
I used to have faith
But then you came along.

Her name tastes sour in my tongue
It hurts my fragile ears to hear it
Even when she's miles away
She haunts me like a vengeful spirit

Hearing you speak of her
Sends shivers down my spine
For I know as long as she exists
You cannot be mine

The way your lips form her name
Makes me want to *****
Your breath is like skywriting
Tracing her name among the clouds like a comet

My rage is a lion
I cannot tame
Every time you say her name

Your hands feel like a vice
On my fragile skin
I want to break down all my walls
To let you come flooding in

But my soul is locked up tight
And your hands are the key
I can't open up myself
Until you unlock me

I'm depending on you
To be my eyes, ears, and heart
So baby break down all my walls
And tear my soul apart

You're the exception to a rule that was written in stone
Forged in blood and skin and bone
A rule in unacknowledged and unspoken
A rule that wasn't meant to be broken

You broke my rule into pieces and parts
Into broken promises and hearts
A rule that was supposed to last
Fell apart so ******* fast

And now I'm prostrate on the floor
For I can't function anymore
I broke my rule, you foiled my plan
Never to fall for another man.

Now that rule's been blown to hell
And I'm a shadow of my former self
You're the exception to the rule that was written in stone
And now I'm left confused and alone