Look me in the eyes
And tell me without lies
That you don't love me too
If you don't love me
Please just set me free
And I'll stop bothering you
If you want to leave
Give me reason to believe
That this is really over
All I ask of you
Is the honest-to-God truth
Please, just give me closure

We've always been on the same wavelength
Darling, we're one and the same
I thought that would give me an upper hand
In this stupid love triangle game

We've got the same sense of humor
We're so ******* close that it hurts
I thought that it would be a blessing
But it turns out it has always been a curse

I know you like the back of my hand
I can recite you by memory like a prayer
I cannot avoid these feelings
Somehow they're always there

But you like her. Hell, I like her too
And maybe she is perfect for you
But I cannot believe it true
For I'm stuck to your side like superglue

She's not you and she's not me
She's something else entirely
And maybe that's just what you need
Everything I'll never be

Maybe I'm in love with you
Or maybe I'm just confused
But figuring it out would be dangerous
For I've got so much to lose

I'd rip my heart from my chest for you
But you would only bury it
My love's a load I have to lug
But I can hardly carry it

I'd fall apart if you touched me
I'll fall apart if you don't
It's time that I got over this
But I know I can't and won't

Maybe I'm in love with you
But you don't love me back
Falling head over heels for you
Is one long anxiety attack

Why do I force myself to think 'bout you?
When things between us ended long ago?
Why do I sit and sweat and stare and stew
and mourn for someone that I used to know?
You led me to do things I couldn't take
Still I cannot condemn you as to blame
Still I believe our love was my mistake
Still I will never ever be the same.
Yet I've matured and learned and I have found
That I've spent too much time on reminiscing
I let you leave me lying on the ground
And all along it's me I have been missing

Now I've grown up and now I fin'ly see
I speak not of love for you, but love for me.

step one* // live in denial for most of your life. tuck yourself into closets and cupboards and slow-cooking pots of rice until all you have left to offer her is your warming breath

step two // warm her hands with your breath. tell her she's worth more than *that guy, than the number on the scale, than her grades, than anything in the world

step three // don't think about kissing her when her lips are bitten with worry. don't think about kissing her when you're tired and it's two a.m. and god, she looks so beautiful today. don't kiss her. don't kiss her

step four // let your breaths fill the closets again. you are eternal, you are infinite, you are alone, but you still have her

step five // write her a poem. metaphorize your heart of glass. verbally trace her hipbones. tell her she is a constellation.

step six // "accidentally" give her the poem. laugh it off when she says that poetry's not her thing, anyway.

step seven // only cry when you are alone.

step eight // bare your skeletons to her unflinching mouth. it's cold and dark where she comes from, too

step nine // when she tells you she loves you, let her. hold onto her tight enough to shatter your ribcage.

step ten // let her tear the breath from your lungs-it's all you had left, anyway.

Our river ran dry,
Refusing to flow.
Then the winter approached,
And filled the river with snow.
Then the snow melted,
And the valley eroded,
From the sky came fire,
And our river exploded.
And out of the fire,
Came a tiny little flame,
That dried out the river,
And it started again.

She was the river
And the snow and the fire
She was the passion
And the heat and desire
The water that gives life
Was the water that drowned me
Floating in the river
No dust, no dirt, to ground me
She took my breath away
In the most literal sense
My heart skipped a beat
And then five, and then ten.

I finally escaped from her white-water rapids
But I cannot forget, won’t regret all that happened

Now I’m out of the water, looking back on those days
And I whisper goodbye to the river
and *wave.

Time passes, ever slowly
You hear the clock is ticking
By yourself in the woods, afraid and lonely
You thank the stars that you’re still kicking

You see before you two diverging roads
Made slippery with Frost
You think you know the way to go
But realize you’re lost.

Time goes by so ******* slow
But faster than you’ll ever know
Faster than you could ever go
Faster than you’ll ever know

Time speeds up, your heart rate too
‘Cause time cannot keep up with you
Time will not creep up on you
‘Cause time cannot keep up with you