My heart would fill
with an overwhelming joy
if ever I got to hear you say
"I love you".

But sadly,
I know that will never happen.

Well someone told me yesterday
That when you throw your love away
You act as if you don't care
You look as if you're going somewhere

But I just can't convince myself
I couldn't live with no one else
And I can only play that part
And sit and nurse my broken heart

Now no one's knocked upon my door
For a thousand years or more
All made up and nowhere to go
Welcome to this one man show

Just take a seat they're always free
No surprise no mystery
In this theatre that I call my soul
I always play the starring role

Lonely, I'm so lonely
I feel so alone
I feel low
I feel so

So lonely

I sit in class next to him,
Left him touch me like no other man has.
When he gets close and pulls back I sit and wonder how would his hands feel on my bare skin?
I wonder what *** is like I think to myself....No
I wonder what *** with him would be like.

Would it be rough and hot the way I imagine it?
Would it be sweet and passionate like his soul?
Would it be ***** and scary the way I think sometimes?
Would it be awkward because I'm self-conscious?
Would it be worth nothing because I couldn't please  him the way I've dreamed?

We walk hand in hand and before we separate, we kiss.
His lips so soft and luscious, my tongue scrapping against his K9's.
I wonder how those lips would feel kissing down my down body?
I wonder how those teeth would feel nipping at my skin?
I wonder what *** with him would be like?

Should I just give up this god forsaken vow, and just give in
Because I want to, I want to so bad.
All the more I just want to please him and bend to his every whim and need.
I want him....NO....I CRAVE him all the time I wonder what it would feel like to have him inside me.

All the time I wonder what *** is like.