The deeper I fell in love with you,
The quicker I came to realize
How much of a devil in disguise
You really were.
But you promised a healing
From the sickness you gave me.
And though I assured you I needed it,
You convinced me I would regret
Holding on to this disease.
So I allowed you your touch,
And like that, you were forgiven.
But you failed to tell me
That the fever had me tainted
Forever.
This is only a portion of a rather lengthy poem I wrote while undergoing therapy. My therapist suggested I write down my struggles to better identify them. Depression has always weighed heavy in my life, but it was while attending this therapy that we discovered how much music was affecting my depression. This poem explains the different kinds of effects music had on my depression, and ultimately on my life. I also hope to shed light on the truth of depression and how it can often times feel like a toxic relationship you can not get out of.