Bisaal

Jun 2017

chrissy who

After

I deserve better
Than someone who chose to let go
I say to myself
Whilst my heart aches with the weight of
A lifetime of
"I love you"s
And everything that would've come with them
Lost.

Jun 2017

Haruharu

Our love

"You are a beautiful couple" they said. But beauty isn't everything.
"They way you look at each other.." But those looks faded.
"The way you laugh together". But those laughs turned into tears.
"The way you love each other". But that love turned into hate.
"That spark you two have". But that spark burned out and died.
The beauty we once had turned out to be an ugly truth in disguise.

#love #pain #sad #laugh #spark #end #truth

Jun 2017

chasing rain

please (don't) go away

i am fearful
of you,
who decided
you wanted to know me

and i am fearful
of me,
who is willing to hurt you,
so i can hurt myself.

i am afraid
when you stay,
because i know
you will leave soon.

and i am afraid
when you leave,
because i really wanted you
to stay

(my favorite dreams
are when you walk away from me,
because i know you will be happier
without me.

and my worst nightmares
are when you stay,
because i know
it’s only a matter of time.)

keep your distance
because i am scared of you
who will inevitably
hurt me
in the end

i do not deserve the you
who will build me up.

i only deserve myself,
who will continue to break me down.

—i am afraid of how much i need you

#selfhate #depression #dependence

Jun 2017

Haruharu

Puzzle

I was like a puzzle to you. You scattered the pieces, removed some important ones for me to never find again. I could no longer put it back together the way it once was.
But don't worry, I'll find better pieces. I'll make a new original, a better, more beautiful one where no pieces can be lost again.

#lost #puzzle #love #hope #strength #future

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