You told me i make you smile.
i love to do it
See because i know more than i lead on
I see your pain,
Though i cant hear your voice.
I want to hold you.
I wish i could somehow take her hateful words away.
No one deserves hate.
And you, my friend knows what its like.
Somehow i know that you are like me,
always counting
Counting the times we fall,
The times we didnt get back up
And ***,
Know you are not alone.
Ive wanted to write you something special for a while now,
you know who you are
Just allow me to hold your hand,
Look into your eyes
since you love mine
And  let me tell you
To keep hold,
To never let go.
We are never born without purpose.
And yours,
Yours is gonna be big.
You just hold on.
The sky
All the stars,
Yours for the taking.
I cant tell you
What you mean to me.
You give me a child-like grin,
You often make my heaad spin,
And sometimes i want things to slow,
But you make my heart beat so fast.
You are special.
You will do great things
And when the curtain falls,
We are gonna give a big bow
*a job well done

In so many ways
i was counting on you
Like the last draw of a card,
i needed you to be the one
But,
As all things do
You passed on,
Your love went from me to the next
And you
Just left me to be forgotten.
I
Was counting on you
To be the one to end my loneliness.
And
For a short time you did.
But as all things do,
You passed on.
You went away,
Down the rabbit hole
To continue to feed your lustful nature.
You used to love on me.
you were a fire *******
But as all things do,
Yes
Yes
As all things do
You passed on.
I wasnt insane
Im not
Really!
Dont argue!!!!
Stop!
These voices
They tell me
As all things do,
You passed on.

We have always been building up to this point
*you had to know it was coming

Im waiting for the sting.
For the gunshot that ends me.
Im waiting for you to give up on me.
Im scared that
In the midst of my happieness
You will come forth and mention your upmost sadness.
Im afraid you are gonna hurt me
(yes, guys get hurt and remember it too)
Im waiting for you to realize what a ****** i am.
I wait for the day you find someone better.
And though you tell me im the one,
I still have nightmares of abandonment.
Its not your fault.
Maybe i should just believe in love,
in you
But im scared
Cause ive put my faith in places before,
*and was met with overwhelmong dissapointment

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You've had to carry the weight of the world on your shoulders your whole life. It's always been up to you to fix things, to make everything right, and correct others mistakes. You've had to put up with so much. You've always put others first instead of  taking care of your self. You do your best to be a good person. You try your hardest not to lose faith but it's so hard.  You wonder why God would put you through so much, or why he would allow bad things to happen to you. Well, I know how you feel. I have been through all of this, and wondered the same thing. It didn't make any sense to me? If God wants us to be happy, why does he let these bad things happen? I beleve it's because although God wants us to be happy, he also wants us to be humble.  We will never fully understand why he does what he does. But i do understand that from suffering comes humility.  Humility teaches us to be humble. All of the bad things that have happened in my life, have taught me to never take a single breath for granted. To always cherish what God has given me. I have learned to see the good that evolves from the bad. I believe that God has a plan for all of us. A specific road that he wants us to be on, and sometimes when something bad happens, it's God leading us back to that road. Maybe whatever it was, was leading you astray. I have learned to thank God for my bad days as well as my good. Because I know that without the bad days, I could never truly appreciate the good ones.  Never give up hope. Never lose faith. God doesn't give us more than we can handle.