“You and me for infinity”
That was the plan
That’s what you said
You made me a promise
Then you just left

It’s not your fault
I’d never think to blame you
It was only an accident
It just didn’t claim two

I still see the lights
And I still hear the scream
I still pray at night
That it was only a dream

Maybe God isn’t listening
Or he simply doesn’t care
It really doesn’t matter
He can’t stop all the stares

“There she goes
That girl who survived”
Everyone blames me
Just for being alive

When their voices get too loud
I close my eyes and remember
That last thing you told me
That last moment together

“You and me for infinity”
That was the plan
That’s what you said
You made me a promise
Then it all turned red

I used to believe in God.
I used to go to church and say the prayers.
I used to sing the hymns and read the stories.
I used to have faith in a higher power.
I used to believe I would go to Heaven.
You never understood.

You never liked church and you thought prayer was useless.
You rolled your eyes at the hymns and laughed at the stories.
You put your faith in yourself, in your family and in me.
You said Heaven was on earth and right by your side.
I never understood.

I used to believe in God before you died.
Church held no answers and the prayers didn’t work.
The hymns couldn’t heal me and the stories annoyed me.
My higher power took my faith and threw it in my face.
But worst of all, worse than anything else, I knew Heaven was a lie.
Because the real Heaven was on earth, and you were torn from my side.

I have got a question.
How do you tell someone you love them.
And not mean a single word of it?

How is that even possible.
If I did that.
I'd have burning hate for myself.
Because right then.
You just injected poison into someone's heart.



But the real question is.
Why.

Is it too hard for you to face me?
And tell me  that you in fact do not have passion in your heart devoted to me?
Because it would have spared me the scars and ****** wrists?