Everyone has a reason

As I draw on my wrist with red
A line followed by another
Until my entire wrist is filled with red
Some say I'm a *******
I say **** them

Regret is one of the worst emotions out there.

I don't care about what you look like or what your social status is.
If you are nice to me I'll be nice back

Roads lead people to a certain place,
Whether it be in the past, present or future

Roads sometimes split,
And you're faced with a decision,

Roads sometimes end,
And you have to wander alone lost before you find another,

Roads sometimes cross paths,
From there you find someone who means something to you,

My question is,
Will your road cross mine?

I ran fast and far hoping that everything would fade away,
Hoping that if I ran far enough
Perhaps I'd be able to rest for a little bit,
At least before the storm caught up to me.

I ran until my legs became weak and my lungs started to burn,
I ran until tears were falling from the excruciating pain,
I ran until y body went numb and the storm swallowed me

Sometimes I wish we never became friends because then I wouldn't take all your troubles and put them on my back. I wouldn't have to keep taking bullets for you and I could finally be at rest.

The saddest thing that I've seen in my life
Is seeing someone who used to care
Not care anymore and accept the position they're in

It's not you that I'm scarred by.
It's the relationship we had which scarred me.

Death doesn't scare me
Hurting those closest to me
Scares me

I'm scared of being caught up with life and forgetting,
How much I love you.
I'm scared that one day,
I'll choose my work instead of you.
I'm scared that I will become so caught up with things I have to do ,
That I will forget the things that really matter;
And that nothing compares to sleeping and waking up next to you.

I lay outside in the sun,
Soaking in the warmth of the sun.

It is hot out,
But I still feel cold.

I’m cut off by the world around me,
The distance between my mind and reality is increasing rapidly.

Soon I will just be a hollow shell,
My mind lost in the past and the future.

I need you to bring me back to reality,
I need you to bring me back to you.

I just realized,
How many small things had to occur,
In order for me to have met you.
All the small accidents,
All the causes and effects,
Everything I went through,
All had an impact on me finding you.

There is a problem with our society
There is not a problem with our kids

It ***** to know that there is something out there
That can take away all the pain

Back at home,
Downstairs playing the piano,
But for some reason it’s not the same
As playing piano for you
Back at the Psych Ward.

Back at home,
Playing that song.
Which I taught you,
And where you asked me to sing for you,

Back at home,
Away from you.

I don't know what's wrong with me.

I feel..off, like I'm watching reality from a distance.

I feel...empty, like I've been drained of all life.

I feel...anger, like someone did something very wrong to me.

I feel...pain, like someone stabbed me with needles repeatedly.

I feel...tired, like I haven't had a drop of shut eye in my 17 years of existence.

I feel...not myself, like someone cut a piece of me out.

And I don't know what's wrong with me.
And that scares me

I know I'm lost with no motivation to find my way back.
I led myself down a paper trail of the pages of my mind,
Now I want them back.
I'm somewhere between no courage among the other things I lack.
Lost in desperation where an ember turns to ash.

Somewhere along this path, I crossed the line,
Broken promises I've made without thinking twice.
I left my second thought and reason behind.
All in the name of making you mine.
Yet you left me alone and shattered my heart into a million pieces,

And now I keep asking myself
Why do I think that I have to live this life alone?
I know I'm lost,
I thought that when we lose ourselves,
We find each other,
But I guess I was wrong.
Now I am back to that feeling of heartbreak

I wish that one day we'll cross paths
Walking along the street
And you'll hug me like you did
The last time we saw each other

I’ve been so caught up with the stress of life
That I forgot how it felt to be me

i'm Sick and tired of not
being Understood
I'm done playing this game in
this Cruel world
If i Die today i will just be another
unimportant Event

Summer reminds me of the feeling of freedom and no worries.
It reminds me of the smell of camp fires and the sound of the water.
Summer reminds me of all the sunset and sunrises.
The sound of the wind.
It reminds me of warmth and all the fun of being around your friends.
Summer reminds me of myself

Tension was created between us by an argument we had,
Still unclear about the status of our relationship,

The joy and the chaos,
The demons we're made of,
I'd be so lost if you left me alone,

You locked yourself in the bathroom,
Lying on the floor when I break through,
I pull you in to feel your heartbeat,
Can you hear me screaming "please don't leave me"?

Hold on, I still want you
Come back, I still need you
Let me take your hand,
I'll make it right
I swear to love you all my life

A long endless highway, you're silent beside me
Driving a nightmare I can't escape from
Helplessly praying,
The light isn't fading
Hiding in the shock and the chill in my bones

They took you away on a table
I pace back and forth as you lay still

I don't wanna let go
I know I'm not that strong
I just wanna hear you
Saying baby,
Let's go home

"How many times can a heart be broken?" I asked,

You replied, "How many times can a heart heal?"

I just had a vision. 3 years from now, one late night at my university campus, I look out the window to see the moon.
I ask the moon to send a message from me to you saying,
"I love you and I miss you."
And I know that wherever you are, you'll look at the moon and hear my message. We'll spend the night having a conversation through the moon and I'll make a wish, just like Brendon Urie once said,
"Hey moon, please forget to fall down. Hey moon, don't you go down."

I'll live for something worth living for,
Otherwise life is pointless and death is the point.

A shot can be heard through
Followed by a thump

A boy’s lifeless body
Is laying on the floor
Limp

It would be too simple and too wrong to say I love someone.
You see it's so much more complicated than that.
After you weave through the layers and layers of walls and barricades that I have put,
You'll see that when I love someone, it isn't just that I love them,
It's that I love how they speak, the way they can manipulate words with their tongue.
That the words that they speak capture the attention of everyone in the room.
It's that I love how their smile seems to sparkle and the way their lip seems to tug more upwards on one side than the other.
That the world seems a bit happier when they smile.
You see when I love, it's more like that feeling when you find a really good book that never seems to end and that you don't want to end.
A book that you can never really put down for that long without feeling lost and empty.
I cannot tell you exactly how or why I love them and I cannot tell you why I love them the way I do.
I just do.

You are everywhere but here and it’s killing me

You think you treat people equally

Time changes everything - it creates ruin out of beauty over and over until the two become so intertwined one cannot tell them a part.

Time is our greatest ally and our worst enemy