I'm feeling crazy
I miss you
where have you been

dear my friend
I think I'm feeling some way
I think I'm avoiding it
I swallow the feelings down

but
the butterflies I keep coughing up
they keep coming out

I don't feel safe
dear my friend
I hate you
this is all my fault
why do I love you so much
when did I love you this much

where are you now
are you okay
tell me is there anything you can say
I feel worse when you don't

I just want to sleep
I want to dream of you in my arms

dear my friend
this is my fault
don't ever come back

maybe I'm your worst friend

maybe
I don't deserve you

I forgot your birthday
don't know your mom's name
haven't seen you in ages
we talk in simple sentences

I know
I'm your worst friend

if you leave
I deserved it

you're too nice
I'd never take advantage
maybe I hold on because you're all I have

you're my best friend
you deserve better

It's 11:11
and for the first time
after a very long time
I'm wishing for myself
and not for you

How do I make sense
Of the longing inside me
Of the groaning and panting
Of the restlessness that won't let me sleep?

I feel overwhelmed by sorrow
I feel out of place where I am
Where is my place here on earth?
Where do I find me?

Please find me.

most people see me as
a happy person because
i laugh easily,
i smile a lot,
i joke a lot.

but deep down
in my heart,
i am fragile,
i can get hurt easily,
but i choose to not
show it to the world.

instead of being sad,
i choose to laugh to cover it.
maybe you can call me
"the queen of the mask"

by this,
you can tell
that most of the time
when I'm laughing,
I'm not really laughing,
i was trying so hard to hide
my sadness.

You talk
I listen
I talk
You don’t

You boss me around
I listen
I boss you around
You don’t

You tell me you hate me
I listen
I tell you I love you
You don’t

You break up with me
I listen
I want to get back with you
You don’t

You beat me
I listen
I yell at you
You don’t

You hurt me
I take it
I hurt you
You don’t

You see, because you’re a male it doesn’t give you the right to always hurt me and think you don’t have to do anything.
Female’s are 10 times smarter
10 times better
And 10 times nicer
Than most males.
Just because we’re females doesn’t mean we can’t do a mans job. Just because you’re males doesn’t mean you can’t do a females job.
Try being a female and we’ll try being a male for a day

there are two types of sadness

there’s the kind of sadness
we ignore and
try to get rid of it
by finding new things to do
or we find someone to talk to
by blatantly avoiding any type of conversation
about feeling sad
about having any feelings at all
and then there’s that kind of sadness
that takes over
and it consumes any activity we do
we know it’s there
and there’s no possible way to avoid it
so we feed it exactly what it wants
it craves the sad music
it craves the isolation
it craves the anxiousness
and the sadness comes storming in
it has no manners
here we are calling sadness, an “it”
when all it is
is a feeling
that most people
call home