... you have to step
back
in order to

move forward


SoulSurvivor
(C) September 20, 2014

i wanted you to love me on purpose.

I walked to you,
hoping I would have a chance.
I limped back every
single time
*defeated

I stopped trying. Yes.... I did.
I didn't say hello. I didn't try to contact you,
wishing it was you instead

I didn't expect you to make me
Your everything, to merely focus on me
I get everyone has their own crap going on

Guess where I lay...
Drenched in sweat
In my bed, crying and shaking through those nights

Gosh it hurt so much.
But I needed to learn where you stood.
You stood so much farther than I thought...

I just want to be happy,
Nothing more, nothing less,
I just want to learn lessons,
And pass lifes tests,
I just want to enjoy being,
Free from thought completely,
I want the eyes to see,
The miracles that meet me,
Discouraged at times,
Its called being human,
And I know ill realize,
But i don't want to wait for when,
I know thats fantasy,
and those thoughts serve no purpose,
Wishing for what we don't have,
Will surely only hurt us,
Somedays are harder then others,
To just let go and be free,
But thats just life,
I just want to be me.