I've been here before.
Hands on waisted time,
something familiar;
something bitter tasting.
You say that you love me.
Love.
How could that be true?
Sometimes I wonder if you even see me at all.
You see the parts you like,
you eat them up for breakfast and
let the flavour sit on your tongue all day.
What about the ugliness?
I know you see it too.
The monsters under my bed,
my creasing forehead.
I want this to work,
I want us to thrive;
but I no longer have time to waste.
I can't afford to lose any more of myself.
You push too much;
all I've ever known is pushing.
I don't want that anymore.
You are kind to me,
and that's worth a lot.
I don't take that for granted.
My sweet boy,
so soft.
I never want to hurt you.
Let us be careful,
okay?
Keep singing me songs,
and I will keep listening.
This could be something special.
Proceed with caution,
but please,
proceed.