I miss you
I miss you
I miss you so much it hurts
And every bone in my body wants to tell you just how much I miss you
My brain is spinning in circles
I find myself
Hiding in the holes that were your home in my heart
Curled up in the places that you used to fill
I miss you so much that it’s hard to breathe
And I begin to think that the word “miss” can’t fathom the depth of longing and heartache that I feel
I don’t believe that, that simple word begins to encompass the pain the plagues me in my every moments
I see you in everything *
I feel you in everything
I hear you in everything
Laughing in moments you would’ve enjoyed
Giggling contagiously as I recounted stories to you
I am torn between the pull that desires so deeply to run to you
Wonderful
Great
Incredible
You
And then the cold bitterness caused by the betrayal that you so easily allowed
Reminds me that I am to remain strong and never allow you to be apart of me again
But,
Oh how I miss you
I miss you
I miss you
Dear god how I miss you!
But you
You hurt me so that I would rather deal with the pain and emptiness that remains in the remembrance of you
This loneliness that I feel even when I’m surrounded by people
Can’t even begin to compare to the torture of knowing that
No matter how much I love you
You’ll only ever hurt me
Over
And over
And over
Again